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Another Update On Life and Spreading the Love!

Ooooookkkkkkkk. So. Firstly I wanna say thank you to you three for your patience and care through this time of my life. Thankfully, my grandmother is doing good as of now.
She's only had one Chemotherapy session, she goes back January 2nd for her next one and apart from some aches and pains and not being able to do a lot around the house, she's actually doing good. However, we aren't holding hope out juuuuuust yet because it was only her first one and we have a pretty bad feeling it'll get worse the farther in she gets.
She's excited to be finally getting a good wig though, she's wanted one for the longest time but each time she ordered one online it was screwed up one way or another but one of my aunts is being a hufufufu (for lack of a better term) and basically kissing butt and bringing drama into my grandmother's life that she really doesn't need right now but hopefully it'll die down.
However, while that's mostly doing good (which I am so, so greatful for and again, thank you so much for everything you all have done so far!) I've run into a new issue that may affect me for a bit. Warning, kinda a rant ahead. I'll mark it with ** so you can skip it if you want. I'm only putting it here because (again) I want to include you three in my life and let you know what's going on, especially if it'll effect our replies.

*I had a boyfriend who I have been with for a bit over 2 years now and I planned to go to college with him next year. He came home.... eh I wanna say a week ago now. Usually we make plans to see each other due to how little time we get since the college he attends is 2 hours away, but he didn't. He said he was thinking about a lot of stuff. No big deal, everyone gets those times of life so I just try and cheer him up and talk with him and such and I  offered to do a phone call because I personally really missed him and he always offered to call me if I was upset. Despite saying he had nothing to do that day, he was too busy to take my call. Also, whatever, it's close to the holidays.
Well, he's answering really short and brushing off my positivity for him making it through his first semester of college. So I start to worry that maybe he's wanting to break up with me. So, I talk to my mom about it and she tells me to ask so I do. I ask him if our relationship is causing him the stuff he's thinking about. He just says that he has a lot going on (not answering my question). I ask him if I need to be worried about our relationship. He says that "he wouldn't say worried" (again, not answering my question), so, I tell him I'll just give him the space he needs and that I'm here when he wants to talk. And I haven't messaged him for 2 days (because my mom told me that he can text me when he's ready to) and he's been ignoring me fully so..... I'm not sure if I'll have a boyfriend for much longer* (I may go back and delete this after a while, I just really needed to vent, super sorry!)

So, why I'm saying all that is I haven't fully been motivated to RP a lot, just spurts. On top of that, holidays are literally two days away now, tomorrow and Wednesday will be busy, and my parents have been really, really pressuring me to drive which takes up 2-3 hours of my day usually. So, I may be lacking a bit on replies the next few days and for that I wanna say sorry.
Finally, for the last part of this chapter (while I may go back later and delete the venting like I said, this part will stay up here no matter what). As said, the holidays are coming up, so I wanna first wish you all a Merry Christmas (though I'll likely tell you again December 25 XD) and I wanna do something that personally helps me when I'm down and I hope on days when you are down, you can come back to this chapter and read this and maybe be cheered back up.

FinnishWolf
I know I say this kind of stuff a lot but, I literally feel like I can't say it enough. I tell you more about my life than most people online. Your kindness always brightens my day. Knowing there are people out there in the world which are like you makes me think that it all may not be so bad. I feel like you and I really connect on a best friends level. I feel fully comfortable with you and feel like I could tell you whatever. I want to thank you so, so much for being there and for always being such a ray of sunshine to brighten up my gloomy days. I genuinely feel so incredibly lucky to be able to call you my friend and, I won't lie, I'd be upset if we ever lost that. I adore you to bits. I hope you never ever think you aren't a gift to this world because you are. You've made me so happy and I can only imagine how you've touched other people's lives. Honestly, I wanna say while I adore our rps to no end and they most certainly make me smile just simply hearing from you makes me smile. You're always ready to do whatever you can and I'm so greatful and lucky to have that. Thank you for being a true friend.

Dad-Of-Pupper
I remember when we first roleplayed, my friend. I won't lie, I was expecting it to eventually drop off the face of the Earth (nothing at all that you did made me think that, it was just that was how 97% of my rps at the time went) so I figured I'd reply and try to enjoy myself until that happened. But, you kept coming back and doing more and it spread and now I can't imagine having anyone else so understanding. You are always there to lend a helping hand and listen and do whatever you can to help and it's a blessing to have someone like that in my life. Most people (not all of course, as this chapter shows and theres a few more I know) help me to a bare minimum. They just want to talk and never listen but I know I can trust you to do both and to always have fair, enjoyable rps. Thank you for being a true friend.

Mr-Burr-Sir
I also won't lie to you....... when you first signed up, I thought you were another account for Dad-Of-Pupper. It wasn't until you mentioned that you two rped together that it made sense to me. Regardless, you always have been an amazing person to me too. You are honestly so funny and we have a lot of the same humor which I love. It really, really brings me so much joy to know that now your life is happy and I hope it continues to go that way. For someone so much younger than I am, you really are doing great and all the right things. I want to encourage you to continue because I know you can do amazing things in this world. You are destined to do greatness. You always have lots of interesting, fun rp ideas and you too are fair with them and you would be surprised how hard it is to have that come by. Thank you for being a true friend.

I have different pasts with each of you. Each of our conversations are unique and roleplays are stellar and the main things I reply to at this point. I have different things in common with each of you, but the one thing you all share is importance to me. I probably would've given up on rping and possibly Wattpad as a whole had I not met you all. You all are incredibly sweet and loving and I really do feel lucky to have you as my online friends. I wanna end with two things.
First, because you all are so important to me, I really do care about and worry for you. I want you three happy and I want to help you all be happy so if you ever need anything, anything at all, please, don't be scared to send me a message whether it's in PM or on a comment. I cant promise I'll reply right away but I will be there to help you the first chance I get.
Lastly, I wanna say again, thank you. You all have made me so happy. I hope you have a good day/night.