Blue Friday

Alone

Note: I don't normally do this. Posting story that isn't mine or what but I've read this story and it blew my mind that it wasn't posted here in Wattpad. This story deserves to be read and to be recognized, it's that good. All credits goes to the rightful writer, redchocopanda. Thank you for this beautiful story!

"Falling in love with a straight girl is like jumping off a plane without a parachute."

Now, if only Beca Mitchell knew that way back when she was still a young, tiny fool then maybe she could've spared herself the pain every tiny and foolish baby lesbian experiences. To her defense though, even the not so tiny, young and foolish still commit the same mistake so what chance did she have of being spared from a broken heart?

But that's the thing of the past. Beca, now with a stable career in one of the biggest digital music service companies has learned, through the hard way—that falling in love only causes disaster and will surely throw you in a pit of endless misery. It's pathetic and is the number one 'must never do' in Basic Lesbian 101.

Which is why, Beca has ultimately sworn off relationships. All of them, be it with a confused straight girl or not. Completely opening yourself up to someone, body, heart and soul where you let the person have so much power over you that's either they catch you or let you fall and die?

Hell, no.

Extreme as it may be, the twenty seven year old producer of live events has stuck to this belief since she vowed never to fall in the same trap again. The trap which she had unfortunately dove down embarrassingly three times — not counting the fleeting unrequited girl crushes which mind you, also stings but just a little bit.

Unfortunately, the source of the problem, as it seems, is that the brunette has had the misfortune of being attracted to a specific type, the feminine straight girl type to be exact, and despite all the warnings before the clumsy 'fall', she had still stupidly crashed down, hard.

Three times.

And before anybody tries to judge her, it really wasn't entirely her fault that girls are so beautiful— and act all clingy and affectionate around her despite the general knowledge that she's definitely not straight. It gets even worse when she's been made as the 'experiment'.

To elaborate further, let's revisit the past, most specifically, mistake number one.

It seems that there will be a time that straight girls would try to 'experiment' with their 'besties' because 'hey, what's the harm in kissing your female lesbian friend— who is secretly crushing on you— for experiment anyway?'

It's like the sort of achievement that once unlocked would suddenly make you cool, wild, or talkbes about when it really isn't. It's wrong and it makes you feel used. Beca hates that feeling the most because she's been there before.

Three fuckin' times, remember?

How about lgbt++ friendly bars, some might say.

Well, not everyone in a gay bar is gay just like the fact that not everyone in the bar downtown is straight, take note of that because Beca certainly did after mistake number two. There's just something about straight girls with their innocent-yet-comes-out-as-flirty smiles, their captivating, beautiful, soulful eyes and their comfortable— too comfortables— and naturally affectionate gestures.

It's a trap so before you engage, abort mission! Abort!

Because right at the end, you're just a friend— or worse, sister— to them and you'd be left in a corner once a 'cute guy' comes along. Okay so maybe that second was more of her fault for hoping otherwise— as all lesbians do with the straight girls they fall for— but still, she can't help her heart.