Secrets and Lies *brolby* ~discontinued~

Part 2 (finally)

One week ago(Colbys POV)

Here I am on my bed actually shaking. Today's the day, i'm finally gonna do it. I'm going to tell Brennen how I feel. We are going to have a party to celebrate my birthday so of course I invited  Brennen, he was acting strange though....maybe he likes me back? Anyways I hop in the shower having to rush since its 7:45 and the party starts at 8. I take a quick 10 minute shower, just enough time for me to get dressed. I hear the first knock at the door and Sams voice greeting people . As I walk downstairs I see Kat, Corey, Mike, and Elton. They wish me a happy birthday and within 5 minutes the house is packed with people. All of the sudden I hear the music stop and Brennen's voice. I look up at him to see a girl beside him...weird hes not in a relationship....

"Hey everyone I hope you're having a great time but I have a very important announcement to make. First I want to say a very happy birthday to someone who has been there for me a long time and someone who I truly wish the best foe. Cole Robert Brock" I roll my eyes but can't help and smile I hate my name. "I only hope for the best for you oh and that someday you find a girlfriend." There's a couple of laughs around the room. "Brolby forever bro. That brings me to my second topic... I want everyone to meet someone very dear to me that I've been keeping a secret for a long time....my girlfriend-" My smile drops and my heart stops.....g-girlfriend? I feel like I might start crying so i push past the people and bolt to my room locking the door.

I sit on my bed and let the tears flow. I've liked this boy since I have first met him I always wanted to be more then friends for Brolby to become real. I sometimes got the feeling that Brennen wanted that to. Who am I kidding Brennen fucking Taylor being gay? God how could I be so foolish. WHY COULDN'T I JUST BE BORN NORMAL! WHY COULDN'T I JUST BE STRAIGHT!? I hate this I could of fallen for anyone and I fall for the one person I cant have. Someone who wouldn't like me in a thousand years. I only told Sam about this and only Sam knows i'm gay. Just as I expected he told me it was just a little crush and to just get over it. But its so much more then that, I actually fell hard for him. We shared so much with each other and I even know times when Brennen was feeling depressed and wanted to die and he knows when I feel like that. I sob quietly for another 10 minutes  before I hear a knock at my door I wipe my eyes and yell that they can come in. I hope I don't look like a hot mess.

Brennen walks threw the door and sits on my bed.

"Colbs...are you okay I seen you come upstairs and i'm worried about you."

I remain silent

"Colby talk....this is your party and you're missing it." He pokes me in the side and I look up to see his beautiful eyes. 

"Colbs have you been crying?" 

I smell a hint of vodka and before I know it i'm kissing him.

Hey peeps you have made it to another end of a part. This chapter is special to me because some things in there I have thought or been threw. For a long time I chased after someone who..well just treated me badly. I only told my close friends and ofc my crush. My crush told others and others told others and pretty soon I was getting bullied about it. It was hard at first and sometimes I wanted to stop living but I had my close friends to help and one person I am truly thankful became my friend and my forever toe-sister helped me through it without knowing, just by texting or face-timing. Although me and this person still talk we are not as close and we wont ever be. What I am trying to say is, it doesn't matter what you are straight,bi,gay,lesbian,etc, we are all beautiful in our own very special way and you should never need to change for anyone. Don't try and smile and pretend everything's okay, because it will only get worse if you do remember there is always someone there for you even when you think everyone's against you. I found my happiness in friends and my current boyfriend. So please if you feel worthless or unloved or suicidal, tell someone, write it down,or find something besides self-harm that makes you feel better just don't keep it bubbled up because you're life is to special to lose.

xoxo~Izzy~xoxo