Used to it

Bad beginning

I guess i used to know how my circle of life is gonna be set and end, because since i knew it, i found that some moments in the past were like written in the same exact orders. Worse but happy beginning, despair but chirping climax, and even worse and drear ending.

Tragic, isn't it?

Well i just call it as bad beginning, because i dont know i dont feel like its gonna be a whole nice starter. Though it is the only interesting part from my whole 20 years of my life, for me, nevermind.

My name is Cory, a student of one of small college in indonesia, i love sketching and listening to music which i used to do them both in the same time because i can't sketch without music, duh. Well i'm not gonna introduce my self properly because i dont want to. And oh i have a really bad ability to overcome any situation and give a bad feedback to everyone. I wanna say sorry for everyone who may got some bad memories due to those symptoms of mine.

11.55 pm
I'm just lying on my bed after having a deep chat on WA with my friend. Her name is Anna, she is one of my close friend in college. These days she seems like her world is about to collapse because she just struggles with her thesis which unfortunately her advisor is quite dick. Her advisor is busy as bees who used to hanging around in the garden full of flowers but still complaining how drear is the garden. Bad bad metaphor.

Contrast to mine, my advisor wasn't really put his eyes on my paper and he was like "as long as your thesis doesn't tell about your vacation in your grandma's house on the holiday, it's all good" for sure. That is why i have finished my thesis now and leave my friend in despair.

Sometimes, i wish i could help Anna to do his research, but it seems like i don't trust her or something, that i used to tell her that everything is in time, like proper time, everything is need a time, don't be rush because no matter how hard you tried, if your Godfather being ignorant, you will desperate and burden yourself. What a wise word Cory, you are such a old classy friend. So i just give mental support or whatever it is that could at least calm her down whenever she's about to jump off the cliff.

Sometimes, i feel like maybe i was too over and too much digging on Anna's life because i often ask her about everything in her life, well maybe that what friends are supposed to be. But it seems too much in my point of view. I know her well, but there is something that maybe i dont recognize that she doesn't want to come out it yet or even wont tell me. But i respect her for that. But it sometimes got me like anxious and overthinking about her. Or it's all on

Well, let's count it from the very first time, Anna is my first matter from the other thousand matters and problems in this kinda period of time. College bad stories.