Used to it

01

2015, early year of college

My Dad is an properties shipper, he used to work overseas and have a heavy duty during a year. His company is located in Indonesia. While we live in Australia. He only came home twice in a year, in every middle of the year and the end of the year. He spent the free days just to sleep and sometimes we went to vacation, tho when we back home he would grumbling and complaining about how tired he was. Thus why we rarely going on somewhere to have a family picnic. When i was kid, i still remember i used to cry over when my father was about to work again. In time we all got used to it, and i feel like its a normal.

Until the end of my senior high school, my father decided to move us to Indonesia. He said that he was exhausted to be all of this thing and wanted together with us.

But i was not expecting this. I was an introvert person, since i was born i was destined to only have a friend to talk and play along. My only friend is Anna, she lives next to my house and we born in the same month and used to play together since then. We always came to same school same class even our student number in the same order, i was 22 she was 23. I believed that we were destined to be together. I never have someone as close as Anna. She was my other half. And She believed in us also.
Even my family thought that we were in relationship.

The same question or it seemed more like an advice which always came out from my mother's mouth "Cory, it's okay you can tell me about your relationship with Anna, it is normal thing."

Earlier i was like always snapped that we were just friend, duh everyone knew that we were friends since born, it does not mean that we should be a couple. Until the second grade of senior, Anna got a boyfriend, and i was like that's it. And my mom actually still doubting me as a stright girl. Hisssh. Then we still together and Anna always told me everything about their relationship, it was like i was her fairy god mother. Yeah Anna is extrovert more more than me. But it's quite interesting because everytime you demanded to socialized with human being, Anna, she was gonna be your first firewall. We really have a good time together. Even We were making plan to go to the same collage with same major. What a life!

Then, this kinda horrible tragedy makes me drown in my chronic anxiety. So dreadful.