RED CRIMSON FLOWER

16:Always there for you

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For the late update.

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Katherine POV

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Again why do my life keeps me going to the hospital or the clinic.Ughhh I hate my life and my self.I keep my family and friends they will think that Im a  burden to them and tgey will leave me.Ugh why Lord,why are you making me insane from all of this things or obstacles that I'm facing?Is this my fate or my punishment.I keep doing what is right but in the  end I'm the devil not the angel.It hurts like hell,the pain that I been trough keeps repeating itself.

I hate myself being a burden to everyone and I hate myself for being a worthless child.I hate myself for being a weak inside and outside.I hate myself being a plastic.I hate myself for my  attitude towards my parents.I hate myself for making people cry.I hate myself for making people angry and making them sad.I never  want them to worry about me who is a black sheep of the family.

I went to the desk of the nurse and look for any sharp object.I look and look at the drawers,the desk,in the cabinet.Aha found it!There it is,see this will always be here.
Yes! I grab the cutter and I fold my jacket,then I use the cutter.

I cut my left arm 10 times,it was deep ad wide.When I put the cutter at my left arm the door was open.I was shocked when I saw who are my visitor.

No way they.. they came for me but why do they do this?Why are they coming here when they have class to attend to?I many question in my head that I need to think again and solve it slowly but surely.

"G-guys hello."My friends greet me and I saw the eyes of Rin she was crying.Why?
"You girl why do you always do this ha y-you p-promis me."I met her eyes it was brown hazel eyes,she was crying at me for what pity.

"W-why are you here guys?"

"We came here to visit you and this is what you do!"Erin took the cutter and Sydhne went and get the first aid kit.And Jack took a towel and water to clean my wounds.I was so shocked at how my friends heal me,support me,protect me and so on.
I start to cry while they were cleaning my wounds."S-sorry"

"You keep repeating it and you almost  attempted to murder yourself."

"Katherine Rox Lopez  why do you keep hurting yourself?why do you bottle your emotions untik you cannot handle it?why can't ask for help when you need one?"

Nagisa was the silent type if he shout out  my full name that he was angry or concern about something or someone.

"Yeah,why can't you ask for support from us your friends."

"You know that were here so pls. Don't do this again I'm begging you Katherine."

I was speechless on how caring and worried  my friends. "I'm sorry is just that I can't tell you guys but if the time is right I will. I can't tell you because of the worst things that happened to me.They became my nightmare this make me like a tramatized kid from all this shit happened."

"It's okay as long you tell us okay."After that confrontation they were leaving me because they have things to do.5 minutes was my family.I can see my father and mother they were in a mess that I created.
I was looking at the ground I'm embarrass of what I was doing and embarrass at myself.I can see the shadow of mt parents I was afraid if they will scold me or yell at me but instead they hug me.They reassured me that I was safe and secured in there arms again.I found my warmth in the hug.I hug them tightly and giving them a smile.

"You know that I'm here right do you remember our promise little one. "I nod and I try not to cry but i can't.

Flashback UwU

When I was nine years old,in the house me and my brother's were pkaying guns.What is what I like to play when I was a kid. We were playing untily mom called us to came in.We wnt inside and I saw my teacher talking to my mom.She was crying when she talks to her while my father was consoling my mom.I run to my mom and hug her.I don't want my mom crying and I did not like it much.I hate myself if she was crying for me but no on ecan because she is my mom.

After that my mom told me something. "Sweetie came here."

I went to jer and sit in my father's lap.My mom look at dad and he nod to my mom.What's going on?Did I do something wrong."little one pls tell us if someone is bullying you okay and I know that someone  is bullying you but I want to hear it from you."

Itold my mom everything my dad was angry and my mom was taming the beast of dad.I don't know how but love can be this helpful hahahah."Little ome promise mom and dad to tell us if someone is bullying you okay."

"Okay."

"Okay pinky promise."I laugh and went to my mom and dad.I give them a hug.

End of flashback

"Yes mom I know it just it's hard to telk you I can't it haunts me in my dream and when I'm awake."

"We understand honey  it just that us your parents.We hate that you face that obstacle and make you this."pointing at me I know how they feel.There own daughter doesn't have a nice past that can make her so much broken that they cannot even repair.

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