Not A Hit List

Untitled Part 4

I screamed as I smashed the dumb picture with a metal bat I kept I my closet. I let out a sting of profanities and stomped on the silver picture frames on the ground. I can't believe every thing in my life was a lie. Every memory was of my dad who wasnt even my dad. They made him rape me and I forgave him because he was forced to and before he was my father but now I'm not so sure if he hated it as much as he said. Did he know that I was someone else's kid or were we both oblivious?

After smashing every picture off the wall, I piled them all up and put them in a bag. I heaved the heavy bag into the back yard. Dumping the pictures into the fire place I poured lighter fluid over as much of them as possible. I lit the older lighter and let it fall on top of the pictures. They burst into flames in a split second. I watched as the pictures of me and Marcus shriveled up and burned quickly.

The squeak of the door opening made me spin around. In the door way was Benjamin and behind him was Jack. I groaned, I had hoped I would have more time to think about what he said yesterday. I turned back to the burning pictures. I stared at one that didnt burn yet. The photo was of me an Marcus, we both smiled at the camera with cake smeared on our faces. That was my thirteenth birthday. Two days before everything in our lives changed. A single tear slid down my cheek.

"Abigail," Benjamin said from behind me. They were closer now. I watched the picture as it distorted then turned to ash. Benjamin grabbed me and pulled me to his chest. I didnt pull away. As I grew up I always felt like there was something missing but I could never figure it out. When Benjamin held me I felt like that hole in my soul had been filled. Like I finally found what I have been missing. I smiled and wrapped my arms around him. He tensed but then relaxed, sighing in relief.

"I will explain every thing piccolo fiore," he spoke softly, kissing my head.

When we pulled away from our embrace I noticed that Jack had a sour look on his face. He had a black eye and a busted lip. I wondered how he got that.

"Nice shiner, who gave it to you?" I voice my thoughts. Benjamin chuckled and Jack flinched. I shrugged when I got no reply. I led them both inside and stared at the empty walls in the hallway. I was going to have to redecorate. Or move out, but if I moved out where would I go?

"Why are you here so early? You know it's only 6:20, right?" Benjamin looked down at his wrist where a shiny, expensive-looking watch laid. He shook his head. I looked at the clock on the stove. It was 8:30, shit. Oh, how the time passes when you're destroying your house.

"I have to get to school." I rushed out.

"No, you dont. I called the school already. You won't be going to school any more." Benjamin spoke in a calm manner. I stared at him, shocked.

"What," I exclaimed. Benjamin waved his hand. I sat down and laid my head in my hands waiting for him to explain.

"I am your father," He started. "Though you know that already. Baby girl, I am a dangerous man with a lot of enemies. I loved your mother very much but I couldnt put her at risk. After getting married at 18, I divorced her two years later after people threatened me with her life. Less than a year after our divorce she gave birth. I knew the baby was mine right away. The baby was born June 13th" That was my birth day.

"I wanted to be in your life but I knew that you would be in danger just as your mother was. So I never made any contact. Marcus was your mothers best friend but he loved her as more than a friend. He was there when she gave birth to you. He adopted you shortly after you were out of the hospital. He acted as of you were his own blood as you know.

"I kept tabs on the both of you, making sure that my little girl was safe. I made sure no one put their hands on you. I watched you grow from a safe distance. Then in June three years ago I had to go out of the country because my father was dying and I had to take care of my mother. I ordered my men to get close to you and become friends while I was away. They sent me pictures and kept me updated." He paused and glared at Jack. I glared at Jack as well.

"I only returned two days ago. I thought everything was fine until yesterday. Yesterday morning I was just as oblivious as I was the past few years. I was catching up with Gunner and Kaden when the boys brought you in unconscious covered in blood. I was so angry I nearly shot Gunner thinking that his boys did that to you. They calmed me down and Darrius told me what happened. I would have left and punished every one who was involved but I wanted to be there when you woke up. I was so proud when I heard how strong you were." He swallowed and looked at me. Examining my face, looking for any sign that I was hurt. I held no emotion on my face. Benjamin brought his hand and stroked my cheek.

"Piccolo fiore, I am so sorry for what has happened to you. I would have never in a million years have expected my men to do those awful things to you. I won't let any one put their hands on you again. It won't ever happen again. As long as you're with me, you will be safe," He paused. "I promise."

He stared at me waiting for me to respond. I was speechless, I didnt know what I expected but that definitely wasnt it. I opened my mouth to speak but no words came out. He was gone for three years and that's why my life was shit. My nose and the edge of my mouth twitched with anger. He trusted his men and they tortured me. What sick bastard would even think to ruin someone's life like that? I stood up quickly and lunged for Jack. His eyes widened in surprise as I fell onto him. I sat on his waist as I took turns with each fist, punching him repeatedly in the face. Benjamin finally pulled me away when Jack's face was covered in blood. I spat on Jack as I stood up straight, pushing Benjamins hands off me.

"I've been waiting to do that for years," I sighed. I looked down at my fists, they were bruised and covered in Jack's blood. I think I broke his nose, I did hear something crack. I walked over to the sink and ran my hands under the water and threw a wet rag at Jack. He wasnt as bad as the others. He never took part in any activities that I was forced into.

"Am I supposed to call you daddy now," I asked Benjamin. "Cause I won't, you're the reason all of this has happened."

We both sat back down ignoring Jack. I tapped my fingers on the table.

"I dont expect you too, no. But I was hoping you would join me."

"Join you in what exactly," I cautioned.

"You are the heir," He paused, "I would like to bring you home and meet the rest of the family."

"Heir to what," I interjected before he could continue. He look slightly irritated, obviously not used to being interrupted.

"Piccolo Fiore, there is a lot about me you dont know. The main thing you should know, though, is that I am the leader of a dangerous mafia. That is why I let Marcus adopt you when you could have lived with me."

"So, you want me to join your mafia?" I asked with a small smile. I would have access to so many guns and weapons. I would finally get revenge and do it as a bad ass.

"Yes."

I laughed, "Hell mother fucking yes"

He chuckled at my reaction.

"I was not expecting that but alright. Well, you'll live with me so you must get packing. I'll send my driver to get you at 3 tomorrow." He stood up and started to walk towards the door. I got up and ran to him. I hugged him tightly.

"You have no idea how awesome this is going to be. Can you teach me how to use a gun?"

He shook his head and peeled my arms off him. My good mood burst like a balloon being popped. My shoulders slouched but I waved at him as he got into the sleek black car and sped off. Well then. Not every day you find out your real father is a mafia leader.