Black & White {Snape X Reader

Chapter two

WARNING: THERE ARE PARTS THAT ARE ASSOCIATED WITH ABUSE AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. IF YOU FIND THESE MATTERS GROTESQUE, PLEASE SKIP THE FLASHBACK.

Your POV
After I was left standing there by Dumbledore, I headed off to the Gryffindor dormitory because I already had enough shit with everyone. As soon as I walked in the common room, everyone was staring at me. It had been at least 4 minutes of silence while everyone was staring. This had made me even more irritated so I said, "staring is very rude.." As I said that, the Gryffindors broke out of their trance and welcomed me. Harry Potter stood up and shook my hand, "hello, I'm Harry Potter. It's a pleasure to meet you! Will you be joining us Gryffindors?" I sighed as I shook his hand, "I'm unsure. They do not know where to exactly put me at the moment. And to be honest, neither do I." Harry just gave a soft and light smile to me. Suddenly, Hermione piped up, "but you are welcome here! So..! I- I mean we, have a few questions, so come sit."

As I sat down I was bombarded with questions. "Hold on, one at a time. I cannot understand a thing any of you just said!" I said. Hermione was the first to ask a question, "Did you encounter Professor Snape yet?" I rolled my eyes and replied with a sour, "yup." They all laughed a bit at my reaction and then another Gryffindor piped up. "How did you feel when they called you up and you didn't get a house? We're you scared, nervous, disturbed, etc.?" He said. Wait. I need to think for a minute. If I tell them how I really felt, then they will find my weak side and I promised that wouldn't happen. It cannot happen. I have to stay blank. "I didn't really feel anything. I wasn't worried, or nervous, or disturbed." They all looked shocked and I heard a few "wow"s. As I answered a few more, a question made my heart stop. "Have you met your soulmate yet?" I looked down and said, "no. Nor do I need one." Venom dripped from my every word as I showed no emotion. "Oh..we're sorry." They said. "Don't be. I don't need one. I'm better by myself, I can already tell." I said.

After that eventful day, I decided I'd just go to the balcony and look out. As I put on my jacket, I crept outside. I looked at the stars and stared in awe. Why did everything have to be so stressful? As I hummed a soft tune, I gave a sour look to the clouds. "Damn this place. It seems as my life isn't even worth living. First I started with those assholes, and now I'm here being ridiculed for not having a house. Screw this man." I said angrily. As I mentioned my muggle foster parents, I got disturbing flashbacks and immediately started crying and saying disturbing things. My breathing raised and fell horridly. What I didn't notice was a certain professor watching me cry on the balcony.

*~flashbacks to when you lived with your foster parents~*

I hid under the couch, my eyes widened with fear. "Where are you, little brat!?" I heard him scream to me. Oh gosh, oh gosh! What am I ganna do?! My breathing rapidly increased, and I knew that if I didn't stay quiet, I had a beating in store. "Dad I think she's under the couch!" I heard Eric say. My eyes, going wider even though I didn't even know they could, started to water and I trembled as I hid. Then, as I felt my hiding spot being lifted up, my breathing stopped. Actually, everything stopped. I flipped my head, my tears swishing in the air, and the sight of the belt he held. And as I saw him slowly bring it down, everything went black.

*~out of flashbacks~*

"No no no no no no no no no..." I repeated over and over. "Get the fuck OUT OF MY HEAD!" I yelled. "I can't escape this. I have to jump." But as I stood up I felt the soft hands of Dumbledore bring my body down. He cradled me as I cried. "Oh god, oh god, oh god..." I repeated, now balling my eyes out. "Hey, shh.. it's okay..!" I heard his soft voice say to me. I slowly rocked in his arms as I mumbled quotes, nonsense, and irrelevant things like how I spilt the milk the other day. Dumbledore only chuckled when I told him about the milk. What I really wish I'd noticed was Professor Snape standing in the corner, a concerned look on his face, biting his nails, and tapping his foot impatiently.

Maybe if I had noticed him standing there, things would be different, but they aren't. Even though I wish they could be, they aren't. I thought of him at the moment, wishing that the Stone cold professor was cradling me, telling me it would be okay. I thought that It very well could have happened, but nevertheless seems like a crazy idea. Since I didn't notice him standing there in the doorway, I believed he hated me. I believed he hated me for the longest time. Maybe if I had just looked over, it wouldn't be as messed up as I thought it was. But it turns out, he had been caring towards me. He had begun falling for me. Of course, I didn't know it. But I wish I had..

(A/N: IMPORTANTTTTT. alright today there isn't that much of a chapter because I'm going to Universal Studios: Harry Potter Land today!!!!! IM SO EXCITED!!!! We're almost there but I figured I'd finish this chapter before we got there. I'll take lots of pictures and make an A/N chapter and show you all of them. Should I do a face reveal? Eh, I'm kinda ugly lmao. I'll do an A/N afterwards! I'll be here for at least 12 hours! HOORAY!! Omg the car just started beeping and my dad goes, "what the hell was that?" And I went, "a bomb." Lmao!
Will Snape love you? What will happen now? What will happen if you and Snape touch?

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