You Can Have My Heart (Oli Sykes Fan Fiction) COMPLETE

Honesty

"Anyway," I said, changing the subject after a few minutes. "The reason I asked if you'd been with anyone else is well, I wanted to tell you that we don't have to have anything between us... if you don't want to." I said. He looked at me confused and I knew I was going to have to say it straight out. "I mean, I'm on the pill and we're exclusive now, so..." I said a little awkwardly.
"Oh." he replied, maybe a little shocked. "Are you sure?" he asked.
"Yeah. I've been on the pill for years, it's just an exclusivity and trust thing for me, that's all." I admitted. "And you're my boyfriend now and I trust you, so you can do whatever now." I added, stroking his arm as I said it. Thinking about it, maybe I should have waited to have this conversation another time seeing we'd just had a very serious discussion. He smiled at me and leaned in and kissed me. "Well, I trust you too, as long as you're sure you're ok with it." he said.
"I'm sure." I said with a smile. "And Oli, you can do whatever you want to me." I said with a cheeky smile. It sounded so naughty. He looked at me wide eyed and laughed.
"What exactly do you mean?" he asked, digging.
"You know..." I said with an embarrassed laugh. I felt my face going red as he laughed, so I pressed my face into his chest.
"I really don't!" he said. By now I was bright red. "Don't get all embarrassed on me now..." he said with a chuckle. "You can say anything and I won't judge." he added, clearly really wanting me to say what I was thinking. "I'll probably just be excited." he giggled.
"I can't say it... it's embarrassing!" I said, laughing awkwardly. "It sounds porn-y." I said, my words muffled into his chest. He laughed hard.
"Ok, what about if I say something porn sounding first and then you can say yours?" he suggested so I wouldn't feel so awkward. I was mortified but agreed.
"Ok, um..." he said thinking. "I'm gonna pound that pussy and make you cum so hard." he said in a deep voice. I erupted in laughter; It was the most hideous thing I think I'd ever heard and he obviously thought so too because he started laughing too. "Oh my god!" I cried. He just laughed.
"Ok come on, you have to say yours now!" he said reminding me that I indeed did have to utter those embarrassing words. "Ughhh..." I sounded. "Ok, ok... well, I mean, you can, you know... ugh! Finish on, or in... Or wherever." I said. I couldn't make eye contact with him, I was actually mortified that I'd just said those words to him. He laughed a little, but squeezed me tight. "Joy, look at me." he commanded. "I can't. I'm embarrassed." I said with a laugh.
"Hey, I said 'pound that pussy', mine was way worse!" he said with a laugh. He was right, it probably was and I looked at him shyly.
"You are the cutest when you get all embarrassed. But really, you shouldn't be embarrassed around me, ever." he said with a smile. "I'm constantly around four guys... Believe me, there's nothing you could say that I haven't heard before." he said with a laugh.
"Ok." I said. "Can I ask you a question then?"
"Of course, you can ask me anything." he replied.
"What do you like? I mean, from what I just said." I asked. I was truly curious. "Mmmm..." he sounded like he was thinking. "Now I'm the embarrassed one." he said with a laugh. "To be honest, 'in' is definitely a big trust thing and reserved for when you completely know and love someone... it's definitely the best though." he replied thoughtfully. I looked at him, completely intrigued.
"To be honest, I haven't done that very much." he admitted. "Maybe that seems crazy since it feels the best, but even if a girl tells you it's fine... like, how do you know it's true? It just kind of isn't worth the risk, you know? Even with girlfriends, sometimes it's just safer to go the condom option." he added truthfully.
"I understand." I replied, I could totally get it – especially when he's famous. God only knows how crazy some girls are. "Well, whatever you want is fine with me. I wont be offended or anything, I just wanted you to know it's an option." I added with a smile and a kiss.

"I have another question." I said, just kind of trying to move away from the topic. "What position is your favourite?" I asked. He'd asked me in the past what I liked, but I'd never actually asked him... I guess I just assumed he'd do what he wanted, but to be honest, I don't know if he really thought so selfishly, ever.