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Trauma

Izuku

"... Quirkless," I muttered to Kacchan who had asked me for the results of my quirk test.

"What was that?" He said with a smirk. "I couldn't hear you."

"I said 'quirkless'. I don't have one," I said while tears welled up in my eyes.

I felt him stare at me as I adverted my gaze to the ground; shame was rumbling through my veins.

"Wow. Not only are you a worthless Deku, but now you're a worthless, quirkless Deku," he said. I could hear the disappointment in his tone which crushed my heart even more. "If anything, now you're just gonna drag me down."

I took a deep breath to try and calm my emotions that were splashing over the rim. "I-I-"

"Useless," he spat before turning and walking away.

I froze momentarily before my legs gave out and I fell on my knees. Tears cascaded down my cheeks; now I want to go home and hide in my room.

(Twelve years later)

"If you want a quirk that badly, why don't you wish for a quirk in the next life and take a swine dive off a rooftop," Kacchan said with amused venom. I kept looking out the window that he threw my book out of and clenched my fists.

Today wasn't really one of my bests. I only got an hour of sleep, I cut my palm while cutting fruit for breakfast, I tripped twice, I was late for school, my teacher seems to be disappointed in me for whatever reason, my lunch was stolen from me by one of my bullies, the class laughed at me when my teacher stated that I was going to aim for UA, and now Kacchan just burned my book, tossed it out the window, and lastly he suicide baited me.

When Kacchan and his lackeys left the classroom, it still took me a few minutes to relax my body; my fingers trembled as I wiped the tears that were threatening to fall.

I just feel so tired now. Tired of the bullying, the arrogance, the pain. I'm just done with people in general.

With a small sigh, I rubbed my shoulder that was still aching from the burn I just received and got my bag together before going out of the room to retrieve my notebook.

"You idiot," I mumbled. "If I had listened to you, you would be arrested for luring me into committing suicide."

I sunk my hand into the water where my notebook had landed. The koi fish in the pond were nibbling at the edges. "C'mon, you guys. This isn't food."

I pulled out the notebook that was completely soaked before letting out a long sad sigh. "I just finished my newest analysis on Present Mic in this one."

I sat on the edge while staring at the soaked pages before setting it down next to me and looking up at the sky. I took a deep breath and silently whispered, "it's just another day. Tomorrow will be similar, and so will the next day, and the day after that."

I looked down at my hands. "Just get through it till you can be free of whatever it is."

With a small nod, I picked up my notebook and stood before walking off the campus.

It was a boring walk, but I enjoyed it. To be quite honest, I like to be alone. And I'm not sure if that's my inferiority complex or my natural dislike of large crowds, but I'll take it.

I slowly walked through a tunnel that was basically an underground pass, but right when I got to the entrance, I felt an overwhelming feeling of discomfort.

"A medium sized skin suit, you will have many uses," a male voice said and I suddenly heard. I then felt something slimy and moist touch the back of my neck before it yanked me back. "Stay still, it won't last long and won't be too painful."