I'm going to write this story with it being each persons POV each chapter
Triggers in this chapter
Self harm
Thoughts of suicide
Abuse
Rape
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Cameron pov
"What was life anymore" I thought to myself. Words flowed through my head it was 3:00AM I had school in 4 hours why can't I sleep. I kept thinking of what my father said to me the night before.
— flashback to the night before —
*crash*
I dropped a glass on the ground after my dad had stumbled through the front door clearly drunk "hey slut get me a beer from the fridge and make dinner" my father screamed at me from the kitchen. I quickly rushed over to the fridge walking to the living room to give him the beer "h-here you go father" I handed him the beer and went to the kitchen I began working on dinner, I knew I wasn't going to get any. I had made him spaghetti "ahh" I burned my hand on the pan as I plated the spaghetti trying not to make to much noise. "What the fuck is going on in there" my father yelled "n-nothing just making your f-food" I said scared that my father would come into the room. I took him his plate and went upstairs to get ready for bed I was starving but I wouldn't let him know that I would have gotten even more of a beating if I would have asked for food. I went to my room and grabbed a tank top and some sweat pants and went to the bathroom, I was fortunate enough to have a bathroom in my room.
I got out of the shower and went downstairs to clean up the dinner mess when my father stumbled into the kitchen "where the fuck did you go bitch" he screamed into my face he was clearly drunk "I-I went to t-take a s-shower" I stumbled on my words my body couldn't take another beating but I knew what was coming "did I tell you that you could take a shower" he said pinning me against the wall "n-no sir" I said looking at the ground, he slapped me in the face "what's my name" he spat in my face "s-sorry d-daddy" I knew I was going to be raped tonight. My father grabbed me by my neck and forced me to face the wall pinning me there forcefully I knew I wasn't moving he grabbed my hands and pinned them behind my back taking his belt off and tying my hands he then picked me up and carried me to my room he threw me on the bed "don't move slut" he said in a serious tone, I knew to listen. He walked out of the room and came back moments later with handcuffs and a whip
(You all know what happened and I don't want to write this)
He left the room.
He had left me there broken, fucked, and chained literally he left me with my hands and feet still chained to the bed. An hour later he walked back into the room and Took the cuffs off of me and said "you know your mother would still be alive if it hadn't been for you"
— End of flash back —
There I was 3 hours after that crying in my bed wishing I was dead thinking to myself would the world be all that different if I was dead. I got up out of my bed and walked into my bathroom looking at myself in the mirror, I had dark black bags under my eyes from lack of sleep my skin was pale and I was super thin. I opened the drawer and reached for a little metal tin picking it up, I opened the tin and looked at the shinny metal blades looking back at me I took one out of the tin and placed the tin onto the sinking raising my arm from my side and placing the metal to my skin slowly dragging it across my arm looking at the crimson liquid pouring from the cut
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I lost count my whole arm was covered in cuts I put the blade down and locked the door of my bathroom turning on the shower and hoping in the water was like fire on my cuts it hurt but I didn't care it stopped the voices that were screaming in my head I started to cry no not cry sob I was sobbing because my life was falling apart I was broken past the point of repair no one loves me and no one loved me my mother was dead because of me and my father abuses me what an I suppose to do. I got out of the shower and bandaged my arm cleaning off the blade and putting it back in the metal tin I then placed the tin back into the drawer and unlocked the door walking into my room and putting on a hoodie before going to bed.
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I hope you guys liked this chapter I just spent like an hour of my life writing it it's 2:29 in the morning at the time I am writing this so I am going to sign off for the night
Make sure to comment on this and give me some ideals
Gn all
Love
-Kat
