Shock: Runaways

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I was always fascinated by myths and legends I always thought that they were more then stories that hidden behind all the frill of saveing the damsell in distress there was a little truth but then again these are just hopes and to be honest I would be the frill....sorry for sounding depressed i lost a friend a while back and she kinda asured me on these things but now now i am not so sure...... anyway my narcolepsy and adhd keeps me up alot but i got 4 hours of sleep last night from 11 to 3 in the mourning and now i am just reading over my mytholigy notes just covering the Odyssey again witch is like the fifth time I have gone over it but i can never sleep so its the only thing thati can do an...

"GERT,MOLLEY,ZAY THE GLUTEN FREE NO FAT NO CARB ZERO SUGER EXTRA FIBER EXTRA CAFFINE PANCAKES ARE READY" The sound of Stacie's voice ringed thrue my ears as i rolled off of my bed and stood at my full height of .... 5ft ya just 5ft mollie is taller then me by 4 inches i got to look up slightly it sucks and she might get taller the doctor said that I wont grow anymore but i walk over to my dresser grabing some skinny jeans a t shirt and a sweatshirt converse and a beanie and put on my glasses witch are biger then I wanted but gert insisted that I go 'go against the norm' and get a pair of big square glasses but i digress anyway I am just glad that dale and stscie bought me these cloths or i would be wareing girl cloths or childrens cloths so I live with big glasses i grab my phone my wallet and a picture of my parents my mother a beautiful women with brown hair and light blue eyes and my father a man who looked normal only non normal thing was his dark forest green eyes it was obvious who i took after but i put that behind me as i stuff the photo in my wallet and put the wallet in my pocket and step out of my room and start walking down the hall towards the stairs when i see molly "hi molly" my voice high pitched and girly and makeing me slowly hate myself more "zay, your comeing to my tryouts right right" she looked so excited and as much as i wanted to say yes i could not you see at assemblys they dance and face the seniors and the basicly twirk the freshmen,sophmores and juniors witch you now is a thing but anyway geting off track"i cant molls i got mytholigy club" her smile wavers"right i forgot" and i didint notice gert behind me and she makes a coment "just reinforceing the patriarky of are society not as much as cheerleaders but still "and with that glowing peice of sentiment we continue on are way down the stairs and I prepare for dale now before we fet to what is about to happen dale thought I was actually a girl till about last year when he looked at a medical report and was shocked so he on pupose says and as i am thinking this"hey Girlsss good morning gert,zay here are your pills"i take a adhd pill and a caffine suplement to keep me awake as well as a giant mug of coffee and dales 'secret amazing fiber pancakes' aka fiber squars which I dont want to talk about there disgusting but dispite that i dont throw up and grab my back pack heading to the car with the rest me siting between molly and gert with my backpack on my legs and wait tell we reach school and molly starts to whine a bit gert asks"you ok" and i add on "ya you look a bit pale" molly responds "no i feel really weird" stacie says and i am prepared for the worst "oh molly sweetie we had this talk menstrations a blessing not a curse.. you just do your breathing exersizes and drink the kmomeal tea that i put in your thermas..." 'phew all good no talk about'"and if that dosent work go to the bathroom and give yourself an orgasm" gert looks horified i look more horifide gert says "mom siriously" and i say "oh what lovely conversations we have" in the most sarcastic way possible "what oxytosins are a natral pain releaver and zay what did we say about sarcasim" dale decideing to put his imput in "it is good advise listen to mom" molly says "im gunna put in earbuds now dance squad tryouts are today"gert in her infinate wisdom responds" uhh dance squad is just cheerleading without pom poms your just reinforseing hegomonic masculinity while marjonaliseing womens identity" i say " wow thats alot of words for something that could of been said in 10 words with 20" gert looks at me and molly says "sure but i love the outfits" stacie says "gert your new meds are in your backpack and zay dont forget to take your second pill or you will anger the teacher again and gert fewer sidafects in the lexipro and not so much with the costapation" i face palm for gerts sake dale says " oh are you a little backed up gert"we start to leave and i tune the rest about fiber bars out and start to walk to my private school i really wish i went to public beacuse most of these people were stuck up ritch kids and well i guess i am included in the ritch part i hope not stuck up but i find a seat infront of a piller and throw the hood of my sweatshirt on and grab my journal reviewing my math notes when i feel a pair of eyes on me (A/N its karolina she looks at him instead of nico) and look around but i see no one looking at me but i see karolina walking away 'was she..no no just my imagination' i see chase and his asshole friends walking my way including Ryan Walker a person covinced that i am a girl " ahhh zay zay zay whats it short for again zalina ziva" i look at him and his cocky smirk"zayden and for the millionth time walker im a guy not a trans not a girl not crazy 100% guy" his smirk doesent falter" of course you are" he says in sarcasm as he reaches for my hood but chase yells back at him "Ryan you comeing or you gunna keep being gay" Ryans smirk leavs his face and jogs to catch up yelling about the fact that im a girl i notice a few tears down my face and wipe them away as the bell rings and i start the walk to class my mind filled with self hate why was i born this way why do i look like this why why no stop what would amy say " dont listen to them there just dumb pricks who feed off the torture of others" i miss her alot she was the only one to now this stuff and she always new what to say. As i walk toward my class manuvering thrue the crowds nearly sufocateing in the pure horde highschoolers i squeez into are class ironicly all my old friends besides molly are in here so i go and stand behind my table spot placeing my bag on the ground and grabing my mytholigy journal full of info on greek norce and egyptian gods and flip to baal the egyptian god of lightning i now gert is talking about her club and i already told her i could not beacuse of mytholigy club otherwise I would evan if i hated it gert eventually returned to her seat when something new happened alex walks up to chase and starts talking it seems normal for 5 seconds tell chase noticed who he was talking to and gert overheard and quikly came over senceing a huge debakle vary soon i prep to walk over and calm stuff down and as gert and chase start to yell i start over same time as carolina and alex says "this delightfull banter is why i think we should all get together and hang out at my place tonight" and karolina asks" your haveing people over tonight" i became exsited a chance to have my friends back together again until chase "why are you intrested" i deside to say " um are we cus i would like to" but carolina then says "oh no im sorry i have a church thing" i quikly say "well if this an actual thing and not a cruel joke you can come by after" my cofadence showing a bit beacuse my voice is not as quiet as a mouse but sadly still feminen alex continues "ya it dosent have to interfear with your religion" then gert desided to ruin it all " religion is that what were calling it now" karolina says "what i belive in is positive and lif afirming and dosent allow me to be cut down by some misrable loser" ok kinda mean but kinda deserved but as i am about to defuse the situation to save this chance chase and gert start talking and i just cant follow it anymore then karolina starts to storm out and say a quiet bye witch she rociprocates with a smile and a wave gert gives me a look but i ignore it then chases possey walk in"yo chase lets roll" chase"i gotta go" alex "cus of these guys you used to make fun of kids like them" chase "ya now we make fun of kids like you and miss zay over there" ryan speaks out of the possey"zaylin your free to go to the party tonight just act like the girl you are" then they leave and i hold in tears gert "and you wanted us to hang out" she then leavs" i then tell alex " i wanted us all to go alex ill go and ask molly if she wants to mayby we can play a video game or something" alex turns to me " ya sure i just wish the rest would come just come over after your club" he walks away and i am happy but want to cry over what chase said so i walk to gerts new non binare bathroom that she patitiond for no one goes in there exept for when assemblys happen so its really clean i put my hood up and tears leak out and i hear a door to one of the bathroom stalls open and karolina walks out and looks at me she also looks like shees been crying she asks "is everything okay" i respond "ya super you" karolina "ya just alergies i think i mean theres a rediculus amount of pollen in the air or is that just me" me "ya totally" i pull my hood further up and my sleavs down just shrinking in " you now you dont have to hide in that you now" i look at her " this is what i hide behind for you its your smile chase his adatude neko her makeup were all hideing and until we talk it out we will hide i just hope its soon.. cus i miss you guys.. bye karolina" i start to walk away and she says "bye um mayby we can talk it out sometime" i respond "just try to come to alex's thing later"i then walk out.