The Diary of Jane

Forbidden War

Chapter 1

Decisions

Do you ever feel like you're being suffocated by so many emotions that you can't even breathe? Even time seems like it's going by too quickly. I am still trying to figure out how Xenos could still be alive when I watched him die right in front of me. I knew my aunt was a witch, but I had no idea that she was also a succubus, how is that even possible?My father recently told me that my aunt was adopted, which would explain why my mother was treated more like family and got most of the attention. This would also explain why they looked nothing alike. Yet again more secrets. I wasn't sure if I was going to tell Iyana that I saw Xenos in the garden. If she knew he was still alive, I'm not sure how she would react.I loved Iyana, and I loved Xenos as well, but I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to love Iyana the same way that I loved Xenos. Ever since that night I saw Xenos and then he just disappeared, I've been having dreams about him like every other night, and they all just seem so realistic. There would even be times where Iyana would be right next to me in bed while having the dreams.

One night, she had to wake me out of my sleep because I was gasping for air. "Jane! Jane! Wake up! You're having another nightmare." "You okay?" "Yeah, I'm fine." "You want to talk about it?" "Um, no, it's okay." "You sure?" "Yeah." "Alright! Well, go back to sleep." She kissed me on my forehead, and we both went back to sleep.I was starting to get more jumpy, clumsy, and I accidentally dropped a plate when I was doing the dishes. "I got it, Jane." "Jane, I've been getting worried about you. You've been acting very odd lately, do you still not want to talk about it?" "I ran my fingers through my hair and thought about whether or not I should tell her. I mean, how bad could her reaction be? "Okay, Iyana, there's something that I've been wanting to tell you, but I was overthinking about how you would react." "What is it?" "Xenos is alive."She just stood there with a completely blank expression on her face. "What? What do you mean he's alive? We both watched him get killed by the witch. She basically sucked the life out of him!" "Well, apparently, she kept him alive and turned him evil." "So, you're saying he's working for Tavera now?" "She's manipulating him, Iyana, and we have to save him." "How do you know if he's even savable?" "Because I just know." I feel like she was doubting me, which I didn't like. I think a part of her would rather me not search for Xenos, just so she could have me all to herself, but I never knew Iyana to be selfish like that, ever. I'm giving her the benefit of the doubt.

I knew at that point I was going to do whatever it takes to save Xenos. It didn't matter what situations I would have to come across; I was determined. There was so much on my mind, and I couldn't even think straight. Whenever I found myself overthinking, I would just think about my mother. I used to get panic attacks when I was younger, and my mother would calm me down by singing to me.She had the most angelic voice. I had to stop myself from getting in my feelings; that's usually what happens when I think about my mother. To me, my mother was a selfless hero, a role model. I walked in my room and picked up a photo of my mom embracing me as a baby; I was more of my mom's complexion. My father told me how thrilled she was to be a mother. I miss her so much.Looking back, I think about how much has changed. It wasn't too long ago when I was told that I was the chosen one. My life has altered completely. Do I wish I can take everything back? No. I believe in fate. When my mother passed away, I felt like in a way that made me mature more than normal. It made me face reality.

It made me realize the fucked-up world we live in and how immoral things happen to both good and bad people. That's just something everyone has no control over. I remember the story my mother told me about how when I was born, the villagers wanted me dead. They said I was an abomination to society, that I didn't deserve to live.It was unknown for hybrids to be born and not to mention rare. Can you believe they tried to kill a baby? My mother fought with everything inside her to keep me alive. She protected me, my father too. It didn't help that my grandfather was against my mother being with my father. I mean, she was a werewolf, and my father was a vampire. They were basically natural enemies. Undeniably, that didn't stop them from falling in love.Their love proved that anything was possible. Once the villagers gave up trying to kill me, they left my family alone. This is one of the reasons why the kids at my school treated me differently in the first place. Being so, I just stuck with being home schooled, and I didn't have a problem with that.