Secrets (Hiatus)

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[I saw you there, you were so blue even when the multicolors were surrounding u like some kind of alien, you seem so inhuman, it must be that I always had a thing for blue, your eyes smiling, welcoming me were enough to get me through the disco to some abandoned alley, your lips in mine were curiously red, you became less blue, you became more human and I supposed to feel less overwhelmed by that but no I couldn't I've never stopped to feel overwhelmed when you're around.

"Bonsoir, Elliot"

"What that's even mean? We aren't in the afternoon"

You only smirked Is this a kind of game for you? Or you just expected this being a one-night stand?

If it's like that why you put your number on my phone? When you even did it?

The shadow of your eyes were there for a long time I tried to text you, I tried, sorry, I was passing for a lot of problems and When I finally had some courage I get caught in a long sleep, like really "long" almost a year, yeah that sound crazy, I'm crazy, like officially mentally crazy so yeah, it wasn't me Who you were interacting the last year, this sounds crazy!]

Why do I even do this?

"It isn't like you have more things to do here" Robot appears in front of him looking to the notebook like he is avoiding to look directly.

"What the hell are you doing here?" Elliot said letting the pen falling in the notebook.

"Just seeing how are you doing" He sits in the left chair.

"I thought you have stopped intervening in my life"

"Yeah".

"So?"

"It must be the morphine".

"I don't believe you, you only come when I in danger or when ..." The thought was right, I'm sure of that.

He was thinking about Tyrell and Robot is there as the old times and avoiding the confrontation, well, that is new.

"If you don't want me, I go, ok?" Robot stands up.

"No, wait! Don't, don't go"

"There are some things I don't understand, Darlene said that I only need time but I just feel like it's not enough, the time I wasn't here, the experiences seem so alien to me and there is a part ... I can feel it, a part I can't reach and I'm sure this is nothing to do with the other Elliot so ..."

"So, You want me to fill the blank spaces?" It was true, he was hypocritical, he was asking Kiddo to do the right thing and leave the real Elliot live his life but at the same time he hasn't released his memories, yeah, the ones he has with Tyrell, but who can blame him? he has existed almost the whole life of Elliot, he has been an essential part of him and what he has? Everyone has an anchor.

Elliot has Darlene, kiddo has Angela or to be more exact the shadow of her and him? who was his anchor? he hadn't had one, he only had a purpose, protecting Elliot, nothing more, and for a long time he didn't need more, he believed that was enough and he was so fucking wrong ...

Because everyone needs an anchor, a home and for more he tried to get him out of his system, he only came back, more and more like some kind of virus, he was, he forced his way into him and when he finally made his place there, there was nothing he could do and perhaps he ... he didn't want to do anything after some point because he felt raw, vibrant, colorful, so fucking alive.

The world, his center stopped to be only protecting Elliot, he started to wish, he started to create, he started to ...

"Yeah" Elliot answers trying to get the attention of a quiet Robot.