I'm Alive Through Moments

Pain Did This

I know the pain of hiding parts of yourself away; distancing yourself out of fear of trusting the wrong person again. To live with a newfound low self-esteem. Some people live every day in silent, heart-wrenching pain that just keeps getting worse until they feel the need to escape their situation; to do something, anything, to forget, even if only for a moment.

Im Madison. Im living but I feel dead. Dead from what we all crave for, that thing we called love. I've never believe in true love since my aunt passed away. My parents are still with me but I never felt the love. They tell me that they are 'too busy' for work to make me have a better future. A better future? Im actually losing hope. They don't even notice it.

Okay, heres the truth. I didn't just have my aunt but I also have Joe. We had each other's side since middle school but everything changed since he moved away. He promised he would visit or contact me but its been 3 years now and I still dont have any communications with him. Is everybody leaving me? Am I literally invisible?