A glimpse of the future is all I see.
A dark black cloud staring back at me.
Could this be the end, too soon it seems.
Maybe I'll just hide in my horrid dreams.
I want to let go of the past and push the cloud aside.
I want to be led to a bright future with my spiritual guid.
To start clean and fresh, is all I'm asking for.
I have people who care about me, I wouldn't want to be a bore.
My mind is still blank and words won't come out.
It would make no difference if I scream or pout.
I want happiness to fill my empty heart.
Unfortunately, it too ancient to be ripped apart.
The music and memories won't suffice.
All I want is to start new, that would be nice.
The possibility of that, however, is not likely.
Yet, I need to find something that's right for me.
I can bet a million dollars that a smile won't cover my face.
It has no reason to be there in the first place.
I was never truly happy to begin with.
Maybe all that filled my heart was just a myth.
If nothing can make me happy, than what am I ?
Just an empty body waiting to die.
But I don't want to leave, at least not now.
I want answers but I don't know how.
Maybe I should go out more and see new people.
Or I can dig a grave in a steep hole.
That would defeat the purpose of me writing all this.
However, I can't find what I miss.
I was never social to have friends 24/7.
It would be nice to live in that heaven.
I've given people chances and they've let me down.
I shouldn't be sad, I'm not wearing a crown.
I'm just a person who wants to taste joy.
But my emotions have been ripped up faster than a toy.
I'm a burden on everyone I love.
I want to break free and fly like a dove.
I don't have wings and I never will.
Maybe all I need is an ending pill.
Again, I don't want to disappear.
I want things to be ok and clear.
I'm asking for too much?
