fallen.

one.

unedited.

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it was only 2015 when sehun finally realised he had a crush on chanyeol.

at first when they first debuted he only thought he found the male pretty. every time it was just chanyeol and him in a seperate room together sehun always felt this feeling in his chest. moments when chanyeol held him when he cried from being homesick, him being here for him when his best friend from junior high passed away and when he lost his childhood pet, chanyeol was always there to offer him the love and affection that he was never offered.

sehun felt disgusted in himself honestly, a twenty one year old male wanting love from someone older than him, wanting the attention from a male especially. it felt wrong honesty. sehun was so scared and confused because he has never felt these feelings before. he didnt have anyone to talk to, he was scared of the publics' reaction if they found out that he had genuine feelings for chanyeol.

tonight was one of those nights where chanyeol wanted to cuddle with sehun again. chanyeol tried his best to try to cuddle sehun, but the younger made an excuse of him not feeling well and that he didnt want chanyeol near him.

in all honesty, sehun felt miserable. he was always in this continuous cycle of him wanting to stay away from chanyeol because he hated the thought of chanyeols reaction if he found out that he liked guys, and him. the younger one wanted to escape, but didnt know how to do so.

sehun only had one person he could talk to, but hes afraid of the pain that itll cause him. he hasnt spoke to him in years. he wasnt sure if he changed his number yet or not. sehun wanted to talk to someone to desperately; so he gave it a try.

"nih-"

"l-luhan, i need to talk to please this is important."

"sehun, why are you calling me at this hour? its three in the morning, go back to sleep we can talk in the morning."

"please luhan...its about chanyeol and-"

"alright fine, youre lucky im in seoul for a business trip. meet me at the ryse marriott; i'll be out in front waiting for you."

"th-thank you..."

and just like that luhan hung up. there were no hello how are yous, no i missed yous, not even a how is everything going. sehun sighed and silently reached for his coat and left the building.

sehun got into a cab and was dropped off to his destination. when he got out of the cab he instantly felt tears in his eyes. it was him. he ran up the the shorter male, quickly engulfing him into a tight hug.

luhan hesitated for a moment shocked at the fact that his friend has missed him that much.

the taller one was the first to break the hug, "lets go inside yeah? its a bit chilly out here."

luhan nodded, "alright, lets go. my room is on floor five and the door number is 127."

sehun walked up to the elevator and pressed the button with the going up arrow. he waited there fir a minute then the elevator dinged. the two got into the elevator and kept their distance. 

once they entered the fifth floor he followed luhan to his room. he was only a few steps away from luhan, again, keeping his space. luhan unlocked the room and sat in his bed. "so, whats this about chanyeol i was told about?" he rose a brow with curiosity laced on his face.