am i really your girlfriend || nct mark lee //Sequel

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February 6, 2019
5:00 PM

As I left SM I walked to xxxx cafe where I am suppose to meet Dahyun. I entered and was greeted by a smile that I knew too well, I walked towards Dahyun and gave her a hug and sat down "I got you your drink so you wouldn't have to deal with waiting haha. So what is the reason you wanted to meet?" "Well Unnie I wanted to know how the group is with new people and what I have to face myself with." I told her while drinking my coffee "Well we have a sasaeng stalking Nayeon but JYP is getting it under control but the girls are very excited to meet you!"  She told me with a reassuring smile "I see haha but I hope Nayeon Unnie will get that solved and do I get to share a room with someone?" "No actually even though it's preferred to JYP but we want to feel welcomed so we cleaned out a room that we didn't really use but don't worry the girls have their own buddy system going on there and it's hectic so feel lucky you don't have to share a room with them." "Haha well I have to get going soon I hope you have a safe drive home since I won't be able to see you leave since I have a schedule the day you'll leave." I told her while pouting and almost crying "Awww Y/n please don't cry or I'll cry with you the members wouldn't like to see you like this when you meet them but I'll visit the dorms plus I'll bring snacks when I do!" She said while holding my hand. She stood up and hugged me while I do the same.

February 6, 2019
7:10 PM

I looked around Seoul and thought to myself if I was gonna love again and not be distant I stopped and saw the cafe me and Mark used to go too after seeing him I felt my life go back to the way it was. I realized I loved him to much to ever let him go and this is what's killing me. The man I once love is killing me with emotions and actions. I finally left and went home.

February 6, 2019
8:35 PM

I read the time and sighed to myself I closed the door and locked it, I took my shoes off and walked to my couch I sat there doing nothing but stare at pitch black tv that sat on my glass stand. I didn't want to eat so I left to go to sleep. I took a shower and looked at myself  I felt so lifeless, I didn't even feel like I knew myself anymore I changed into night wear and slept.