when I was a kid I was emotionally abused I would get yelled at told I was a mistake and I was slapped a lot really hard and almost everyone ignored my existence or hated me for some reason I never really paid attention to it because I was never really close with any of these people and I've always been demisexual.
"Demisexual" someone who is demisexual can only ever experience sexual attraction to someone who they have a strong emotional bond with.
so I accidentally caught feelings for my older cousin
One day I snapped and told her she understood but she didn't know I was demisexual but she knew I was pan
I cried for about half an hour before I calmed down just recently just yesterday I was talking to her and ended up telling her I was demisexual she understood and said sorry she was very understanding in the situation and I still love her as family she was the only one I could ever really open up too I find it really hard to open up to people even if I'm close with them and everyone except for her still hates me so I don't trust anyone and when I came out as pan and trans everyone hated me even more now but I could care less they're just garbage
