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Insomnia

                                    Insomnia

I have it yet it alludes me every time I yearn and crave it. It comes to me when most are done with it . It has its way with me and I allow the abuse to continue because almost everything fails to compare to the need I have for sleep without it I'm quick to anger and rage , however I'm physically and mentally weak without it the delusions slowly start to creep in and the already grey world gets harder to see and understand but why does sleep allude me so. I crave sleep what keeps me up.......maybe it's what racks my mind in the dark...the demons I fight back to the back of my mind..... the different voices that seem to get louder when it's just me and them in the dark.....maybe it's the stress of thinking about the future and what can't yet be held..... maybe all the wrongs I've committed....the ghost of the past I've yet to reconcile with.....maybe it's the pain of being young and broke....lord knows what it is but I digress it's just another night sleep alludes me