Puppeteer

Chapter 1-Did I Choose?

I love to think. Just sit and think about anything. That's what I spend most of my time doing. I sometimes think about life. When I was 10 I always thought about how I couldn't really make my own decisions, my Mom or Dad made them. But now I'm sixteen a Boy and make most of my own decisions or do I. I chose to get my G1 license right away but I didn't really decide to do it I just did it.

When I got my car I didn't decide I just did it, I saved and bought my junky little car. Most of the things I do happen like that. I just do them its like someone is controlling what I do and I don't mean like the government I mean like something that chooses what I do. Its like I'm the only actual person in the world and everyone else is a programmed to be who they are so everything fits in place. So I think. I just think about who I am. What if everyone is programmed to be who they are and what they do is all so I get my license,  so I break up with my girlfriend, so I go out or lunch. What if...

I stay in my room all day I had no need to go out side but, the next day I feel like complete shit. Am I insane I think; why don't I make my own decisions. I hear voices in my head I'm getting worried. I Feel like I'm being watched I can't think without listening to music. I can never think straight. I quit my job. I don't regret the descison but its just not right I had no real reasoning. But I feel like everyone is not there they are just a computer making me chose very descision but there us always a flaw in the system always.