Futari dake no Himitsu (The Secret between the Two of Us)

Confession

flashback [ 2 years ago ]

7 months ago ... January 14 on Kirino's 15th birthday ... Kirino confessed to me ...

i was so shocked that time that i didn't know what to say ...

but i didn't intended to reject him ...

the truth is ...

i do want to accept his feelings ...

but ...

at that time,

i was so speechless. i wanted to tell my real feelings too, but ...

i didn't talk at all ...

i really didn't say anything ...

and Kirino just laughed and said,

"ahaha! ahahaha! stupid me! i knew this all along ... i knew it ... i already knew it... but still ... but still... i... i..."

*runs*

at that time, i wanted to chase him. i wanted to tell my feelings.

but i don't know how ..

now that i reject him, i might be rejected as well...

stupid me, after rejecting him, here i am now, chasing after him?!

it might just hurt him more if i did it ...

i know i hurt him already... 

demo ... demo watashi... watashi ... [ but ... but i...i... ]

*three weeks later, February 7*

i've decided! i finally decided to confess to Kirino ... next week ... on Valentine's Day ...

i wonder i still need to make chocolates ...

hmmmm ... perhaps yes ... it's Valentine's Day after all...

i wonder if there are also other girls who'll confess to him ...

i hope no one would... except me ...

*the day after Valentine's Day, February 13*

*9:03 PM*

okaaay ... so i made mini chocolates ... 33 pieces ... heart-shaped ...

i put it on a transparrent plastic and put a red ribbon on it ...

i'm so excited until tomorrow comes ... but at the same time i'm also nervous...

but if ...

...if Kirino reject me, i wouldn't complain ...

i wouldn't get angry ...

.. 'coz i have no right to ... 

i'm the one who rejected him first, so if he reject me tomorrow ...

it's alright ... it's ... al-al... right ...

mattaku ! watashi ittai nani o kangaeteru no!  [ seriously ! what the hell am i thinking! ]

*the next morning, February 14, Valentine's day*

the next morning, i really woke up early ... and didn't come to school with my bet friend Haruka-chan today ... i also told ka-san to don't tell to Haruka-chan that i left early. instead, i told ka-san to tell Haruka-chan to go to school first and don't wait for me anymore.