The Cup That I have Chosen

She's Gone

The Cup that I have Chosen

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        Part 1: She's gone

The thing that makes us who we are today are our experiences in life, the lessons in it and the feelings of it. The last time that I knew I was happy we're those happy moments with her, dancing around my apartment which I could barely afford, hoping that time would just stop...

Sigh*

"Ano ba tong iniisip ko, I kept on reminding myself na tapos na yun, she's gone, it's been 8 years since we decided to end our relationship. You know what, di kami yung tipong magjowa na pang social media bro.

Yea, we were more than that kind of a couple, we survived together each day with just 300 pesos in our wallet.
We celebrated our monthsary even our anniversary in my apartment, just cuddling and playing mobile games. Damn! that was life, she is my life..." I cant just move on na tapos na yun, I just can't..

"Tama na nga yan, iinom nalang natin yan pards" kasama ko si Crister ngayon habang umiinom dito sa terrace ng kabibili ko lang na bahay bakasyunan sa Cagayan. Di naman sa di ko gustong makasama tong mokong na to.

I just wish she was still here, celebrating with me while saying to her na "hey, I made it, I became successful, sabi ko naman sayo be tiis tiis lang diba? ILOVEYOUSOMUCH BABY, ILOVEYOUUU!!"

We did, we loved each other like there was no tomorrow, but maybe love was not really enough? Hmm, I don't know, naniniwala kasi ako na kapag love andyan na lahat, wala ka ng hihingin pa. The next thing I knew wala na kame, all those memories and promises, I don't even know if they were real or not..

Maybe it really need to happen for us to grow and hoping one day matutuloy love story namin.
I know, Im stupid enough to let her go, I just wish I can travel back to time and remind my old self na no matter what happen, never let her go.

*Bzzzzzzzzt* Bzzzzzzt*

*Bzzzzt* *Bzzzt*

"Tanginang alarm to pang bubuyog"
I laughed when cryster said that.
Well I can't blame him, it was literally the sound of a bee, I made that as my alarm to my phone to  remind me something I needed to do or some special dates.

Makakalimuting tao kasi ako, but I can still remember that bee was our theme animal, lupet diba may theme animal pa kami nung girlfriend ko na yon . She was not only my "jowa" I treated her as my wife kahit di pa kami kasal, just like other couples did, we also named our children, we dreamt together saying na someday when we will go shopping di na namin titipirin ang sarili namin.

Problems were always there to help us to learn, but then dumating yun time na hindi na lesson ang binigay ng problema samin, it was already our time to cut our relationship. I have to end it, but you know the saddest part? Is yun yung nag agree siya.

" Shit bro, ngayon pala Birthday ni rody!" Crister was asleep, fuck it I knew I can't trust this guy, he kept on promising na siya mag mamanage ng reunion naming mag trotropa na isasabay sa Birthday ng kaibigan naming si Rody and here he is, fast asleep. Well, feeling victim naman ako, ako nga tong nag aya uminom sakanya e , but come on really? I fucking miss these guys, yung mga kulitan, trip and everything especially kapag may problema ang isa damn expect mong may inumang magaganap.

October 28, 2028 12:10am

Here I am carrying Crister to one of my bedroom, medyo malaki laki rin kasi tong nabili kong resthouse dito sa tuguegarao, it's been a week since nabili ko to, I was so happy kasi it's located near at my apartment noon, you ever had the feeling where even the roads brings you back memories?  damn I know it's a bit crazy but I just cant stop having nostalgia. But then, I knew something is still missing. Alam ko naman materials cant fill this empty place in my heart, it's cringe but totoo.

When reality slap you hard, you'll be sorry..

If we can only turn back time, would it be worth it to change some things? Or maybe it did happen for a reason.

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