bursts of beautiful in my dreams,
while awake my body screams,
whispered nothings in the night,
monsters are humans in the daylight,
burnt sunkissed memories in my head, soon the remembrance turns to dread,
time ticks away my deteriorating existence, thoughts fill my head with constant persistence,
my understandings are jagged and flawed,
the self-hatred inside me is ripping me raw,
all of my days are forlorn and blue,
does my existence even matter to you?
i'm sorry for living, sorry for breathing
i'm sorry i let you go when you were leaving,
i was mesmerized by the warmth in your eyes,
only to be broken by your frigid lies.
the faint smell of you lingering in the air,
to be whisked away by the wind,
I am left in despair.
where do I go? what do I do?
you hate me?
yeah i hate me too.
no where to run, no where to hide
no way to rid of the sorrow inside.
