Diary of a suicidal teen

Ch1. My reality

Keisha's POV
Ever since I was a young girl,I always felt life is like a passing wind. My thoughts on life and death was completely vague,it made me want to know more about it. Christians believe when one dies one goes to spend eternity with the devil or God. Other religious guys say you just go over to Hades... I wanted so badly to know what happens after death.
My situation made me crave for my own death the more...
I was called different names by people around me because of my height... You can literally call me a living monster that walked the streets,an ugly,useless monster girl... Being called names made me feel completely worthless.
My mom,a prostitute who tried fending for our family because my fucked up dad was a fucking drunk.
After their divorce my condition just became worse, suffering from public body shaming plus the stigma of having divorced parents... Only for me to finally hear he got into an accident and he didn't survive. All these happened 3 years ago and I blamed myself for most of it. If I hadn't come into this world who knows my parents life would've been better and if I hadn't tried attempting suicide my dad wouldn't have become a drunk and my parents would still be together maybe.
Now I really felt like killing myself.
3 years ago
"Keisha honey come down lets have breakfast..."
"...Keisha you'd better come down here now,at this rate you'd get to school during closing hours"
"KEISHA! COME DOWN HERE YOUNG LADY!"
She marched up to my room to see the shock of her life
""OH MY GOD KEISHA!!! KEISHA!!!!! HONEY COME QUICK KEISHA<sobs>"
My dad rushed upstairs wondering what the problem was
"What is it honey–"
"...oh my god Keisha! Keisha!! Keisha!!!"
.....that was the last thing I remembered before passing out.
I know you're wondering what happened... Well what happened is I slit my own wrists and laid in my bath tub soaked in a pool of my blood

Present day
After all that happened 3 years ago, I went to rehab and got better so after all that happened my mom just wanted me far away from all the bad vibes. So we moved out of our place to a completely different state
"So Keisha baby it's best we get away from all the bad vibes...I don't want you around those kind of nasty shits anymore,also I'll get you enrolled in a new school,you'll make new friends,go out,have a boyfriend maybe... Just do something with your life"
"Was this really necessary mom?"
"Yes it was and–"
I cut her off before she could finish what she was saying
"How necessary was it on a scale of one to fucked up"
"Keisha young lady you'd better appreciate everything thing I do for you. I get my ass burst up just to get food on our table. Do you think I love the way our life is going? So I suggest you suck up your nasty attitude and flow with the whole change... Besides I wouldn't want you trying to kill your fucking self again"
"Oh mom you had to go there right. Maybe I'll just jump off this bloody vehicle and end it here maybe that'll shut you up"
"Shut the fuck up young lady... I'm a fine black young woman but cos I live my life trying to please my ungrateful daughter I look like someone who's 60 and already dying"
"Whatever"
My mom stepped on the breaks and before I knew it she hit me across the face
"APOLOGISE FOR YOUR BEHAVIOUR YOUNG LADY! NOW!!"
"I'm sorry mom"
"You'd better be"
"<Sobs> I'm really sorry mom"
"It's okay honey. You know what I do I do it for you,to have a better life"
"But mom I don't like you being a whore just to put food in my mouth,there are other jobs out there"
"Yeah I know... Ok you know what?"
"What mom?"
"I promise where we're going now,I'll look for a more appropriate job for you"
"That's better mom"
"Are you ok now baby?"
"Thanks mom, I love you"
"I love you too baby,don't worry we will survive this ok?"
"Yeah I know mommy I know"
"Ok baby let's get moving,I'm sure you'll like the new place I got for us"
She started the car and we started on our journey till we got to our destination. A beautiful place with more trees and flowers than people on the street,but I liked it... The silence was what I needed.
We finally arrived at our new place,I had to face my reality now,a new life,a new me,a less suicidal black teen girl.

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