The Blazing

What is it

I felt like I was burning alive. I didn't know what was happening I couldn't see I could barley breath. I wanted to scream and cry but my mouth wouldn't open. My eyes had something covering them and my arms and legs were strapped down to something.

I woke up sweat pouring down my face and a really bad migraine. I sat up holding my head thinking about the dream. Why have I been having such bad nightmares every night I thought?

I ignored it and got up put on my silky blue robe and walked down the stairs to get some pain killers for my head ache. When I went to turned the light on my mom was sitting at the table with her head in her hand crying I ignored her it's been this way since my dad died. I walked past her not saying anything then she looked up and started yelling at me telling me that it's my fault my dads dead.

I looked at her with hate and went to the bathroom to get the pain killers.
I walked up stairs threw my self on my bed. It was 3:23 A.M and I didn't want to go back to bed and risk having the horrible nightmares again. I laid back in my bed and opened the drawer on my night stand adjacent to my bed. I dug threw it pushing back all the pens, bloody razor blade and scissors. To pull out the computer my dad had gotten me for my 15th birthday. I opened the PowerPoint my dad had made me a week before he went missing. It had been two years since I seen him and the cops gave up looking for him.

I closed out of the power point and shut my computer and reached for a razor blade. It had been exactly one week since the last time I had cut. At first I just looked at the blade and thought I wouldn't do it but I couldn't keep all the pain inside. I sat there crying looking at the fresh cuts all 16 up my arms with the burn of the air hitting them.

I grabbed the bottle of pain killers and took 6 and chugged my water. When I looked at my clock it was 4:38 and I had church in the morning. I couldn't sleep though so I turned on my T.V but nothing good is ever on at that time so I ended up just putting P.S I Love you in my old school DVD player. I ended up falling asleep half way through the movie.

I couldn't move but my moth was able to I screamed for help but there was no reply. I felt a blast of fire burn my skin. That was when I could see what was happening to me.

I woke back up it was about 6:00 I was crying I was terrified I didn't know what was going on. My body was hot and hurt. I muttered to my self it was only a dream over and over.

I didn't want to go back to sleep so I got up and got dressed for church.I put on a yellow scarf with a baby blue dress that hung right above my knees I also had to wear my light pink coat to cover up my cuts from last night Then I brushed my hair back into a fish tail braid and did my make up.

I ran down stairs to get something to eat and my mother was still passed out on the table with a empty beer in one hand and a cigarette carton in the other. The stench of cigarette filled the kitchen. I went to walk up to my room waking, my mom. She took one glance at me with a evil smirk and said "looks like the slut finally decided to wear more clothes." I glared at her and laughed "if I'm a slut what does that make you."
She sighed it off and got up and went to her room. While she was getting dressed I fixed us some oatmeal.

20 minute later I hollered for her to come eat. Of course she came down in here bra and underwear. I couldn't help but laugh at the way she jiggled when she walked. She grabbed her bowl from my hand and gave me the dead eye " you will look like this some day" she began walking up the stairs. I hollered "sucks I'm not as ugly as you" that was what done it.We spent 30 minutes fighting and I finnaly looked at the clock we were going to be late for church.

The whole car ride to the church she yelled at me for ruining her life. I sat there protesting about how she ruined my life. That only made her cry though and it made me feel bad I have never made my mom cry.

When we got into church the priest was already preaching about how God made us equal. Right when we sat down he asked us all to stand up and bow out head and praise to our God with him. After we got done praying we sang 3 songs then sat down and listened to him speak about how much God loves us.

After church my mom said her hellos and chatted with her friends. I ended up going to the car and falling asleep.

The burning sensation was back but the horrible face was gone and one of my arms was free. I untied the rest of my body and hoped down of the chair table thing I was in and looked around the room. It was pitch black I couldn't see anything but a faint yellow glow moving closer to me. I squinted to see if I could get a better view of what it was. Then it hit me and I started burning the face appeared again and said hello again with an evil grin.

I woke up when my mom got in the car and asked why it was so hot in here.