Darkness...

Demons in my mind,

Do you know what the worst feeling is ?
The worst way to cry ?
For me it when you have to cry in silence. Making sure no one can hear your screams and weeps.

Well it's not like anyone even cares anyways.
I wonder if anyone can hear the screams in my head... They seem so loud to me... I wouldn't be shocked if people could hear them.

I know if anyone could hear the thoughts that go through my mind, they would run away. Far away. Leave me alone and wouldn't come near to me In any way.

The demons starts to screaming in my mind. The voices are unleashed.
"You're ugly"

"Go and die, you're already dead to everyone anyways so no one will even notice"

"Once you die you're going to hell, you did nothing good with you're life"

"You FatShit"

"Ugly Cow"
The harsh words still go around my head and the words ponder upon my mind. I ain't even worth it anyways

Anxiety has kicked in. Depression follows behind. Oh love, where are you at this point of time ? Where are you hope and faith. I need you to comfort mee.

The voices become louder and louder.
I'm trying to rip them out of my mind but all I seem to do is pull out my hair instead.

Almost every strand. One by one. I get the razor to shave my hair because i know what ever I do won't make me any uglier.

Because I'm ugly already.

I cry as I shave my hair upon my head, my mascara smudges whilst I try and wipe away my tears. Yet it continues to fall like the blood that drops down my arm.

Today's the day I know it. I'm getting prepared and I know the demons have won this battle. My life isn't worth anything anyways.

Hope you guys are enjoying this story so far... In the next chapter you'll be able to find out what happens to Leah and know the choice she actually makes... Hope you like it so far and are able to relate at the moment. Stay strong my little soldiers💖