Wicked love

Chapter 1

The thoughts in my head were stuck . I wanted to scream , cry , cut . But I didn't want to wake anyone . Every last bit of pain didn't leave . It just stayed and crushed me and got into my soul .
As I lay there over thinking as I did every night I heard a clink at my window . Scrunching my eyebrows I sat up and uncovered my self from the blankets .
Walking towards the sound it came from , my window . Looking around I didn't see anything until a person was on my balcony .
"KIMBERLY?!" I yelled - whispered .
"That's my name sweetie don't wear it out ." She winked and walked towards my room .
"What the hell are you doing here it's almost 1 am ?!" Again , yelled-whispered .
"We are going to a boxing match tonight . Get ready ." She demanded as usual .
"What?" I questioned .
"You're delusional not deaf , you heard me ." Whatever that meant .
" I heard you , I'm not going to a dumb boxing match , which may I remind my brother was murdered at !"
She gave me her Kim look where she makes me feel guilty for what I just said or did .
"Stop ." I said referring to her facial expression .
"Stop what?" She asked still making the face .
"That." I pointed at her face .
"Please can you go! "
"No!"
Suddenly I heard footsteps come towards my room and it only took us about 15 seconds for her to hide in my closet and for me to grab a book and lay on my bed .
Knocking on my door I heard my dad .
"Drewana ? You alright in there ? "
"Yeah , I'm good , just reading aloud I'm sorry . " he walked in .
"Did I wake you ? " I asked .
"No I was already wide awake . I can't sleep knowing your mom isn't home . "
My mom had left us a couple months ago saying she "needed help." And "has to go to therapy ." But we all know that's a bullshit excuse for her to leave us. She's leaving because she can't handle it , like me .
I do feel like her sometimes , weak . Or maybe it's just all the time . Before everything that happened with my brother my mom was like a hero and inspiration to me .
I honestly looked up to her , she was open minded , beautiful , kind . But everything was all to much for her to handle so like me , she gave up . She gave up on her job , family , friends . All of her life . Thrown away .
Although I'm very thankful for my dad and Conrad . My dad is my hero and Conrad , I look up to him . He try's so hard but for some reason ..... My dad just pushes him away and makes him feel like shit .
"She'll come back , dad . " biggest lie I've ever told . Instead of responding he gave me a warm light smile and kissed my forehead .
"Goodnight sweetie , I love you ."
"Love you too , dad ."
As soon as he left the room Kimberly came out of my closet . (I don't mean to offend anyone btw )
"Oh God Drew , you need to stop with that . "
"Stop what?"
"Stop lying to your own dad ."
"I wasn't . "
"Drew me and you both know she isn't coming back . " well there it is . Drunk Kim being drunk Kim .
I was quiet afterwards because all I wanted was for her to leave .
"Didn't I tell you to get ready ! "
"SSSSHHH !" I hushed her and she looked up at me from the bed .
"And I told you I wasn't going . "
"Oh come on! You have been locked in this room burying yourself in books since the beginning of summer . It's time to get out and live a little . "
"Kim , do I look dead to you?"
"Damn near , your eyes are droopy , you're pale , and defiantly need to get your eyebrows done . " I giggled a little .
"Please can you come for me ? " she gave me puppy dog eyes and the lip and of course I gave in .
"Fine ." I groaned .
"Yay!"
"Ssshhh !" She was quiet as I got ready .
I put on my gray t-shirt , leather jacket , favorite blue jeans , and combat boots . My hair was already naturally curly so I usually didn't do anything to it . I put on mascara and eyeliner and took one more look in the mirror . When I had walked in my room Kim was sitting on my bed , texting away .

"Ready?" she asked standing up .

"Sadly , yes ." I turned off my light , grabbed my phone and headed out to the balcony .

As we slowly and some what quietly climbed my fence and got in her car . Bottles of Jen were everywhere and it smelt like sour water and cat piss mixed .