It hurts...(TomTord fanfic)

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I was shook. Edd was shook. Matt was shook. Nothingless to say, we all changed after the incident.

I became way more depressed, to the point suicide lurked just around the corner for me. I cutted, and if anything, I was way to drowned in my own self doubt most of the time, locked in my apartment, rarely coming out to hang with Matt and Edd anymore. Voices are all that talked to me, filling me with bad thoughts and such.

Edd's become more aware and defensive of things, to the point he even hurts somebody.

Matt grew out of his old habit, himself becoming lazy and we really couldn't rely on him.

Not to mention, Edd was diagnosed with cancer for 3 months now. It hasn't gotten bad but we fear it will soon.

Today was a lucky day. Edd and Matt were coming to my apartment with a surprise. A knock on the door snapped me out of my thoughts.

I walked over, smiling a bit and opening the door. Yet, it wasn't just Edd and Matt.

"Tom! Look!" Edd pushed the person I hated so much in front of me. I bawled my fist up, examining him.

He looked different. He of course still had his hoodie on but the left side of his face was scarred up badly, an eyepatch over his left eye. The left side if his arm was replaced by a robot one and I couldn't help but wonder if I did that. "Hi Thomas! "He opened his arms for a hug but I of course didn't accept it.

"You..You made me so fucking miserable!" I teared up, eyes wide as Tord, Edd, and Matt stared at him in surprise.

I closed my eyes, sobbing and crying. I felt warm arms wrap around my waist, pulling me close. And genuinely, I didn't mind. At all. I felt too weak and everything to pull away.

Your weak.

Your useless.

They hate you.

They're using you.

I cried harder, shaking my head and trying to pull away but the person tightened there grip. I couldn't tell if this was Edd, Matt, Tord, or the darkness engulfing me.

The dark shadows wrapped their arms around his neck, pretending to slice it open with a finger and mumbling "They do hate you. Just die already Tommie. It would be better for everyone."

I shook violently, causing the person to run their hand through his hair, speaking up "It's okay Thomas..."

I leaned into Tord, not giving a shit that it was him. I just needed the comfort. Alot.

"Ssssh. That's it. Just sleep....You'll feel better." I knew I could feel my consciousness sleep away but I didn't want it to. I didn't want to have another nightmare. I didn't like them. And who would?

But soon I allowed it, trying my hardest to drown out the noises and to fall asleep. They soon became blurry and I could feel someone pick me up.

The last thing I heard was Tord's reassuring voice before I fell asleep in his arms.

(Lol, I'm listening to this-)