Color of the rainbow.

I'm saying those words

" something I have been wanting to tell you "

"What is it kid?"

Yeah he saw me as a child , I know , I wish he so me like a woman not a child .

I call him Dad , he was there for me before my existence and still now he still is.

" Charles , I need to tell you something?"

Calling he's name out for the first time created tension and nervousness from both sides,

Is it bad to declare love to someone you know it's taboo according to your parents??

Is it harmful to love someone your not supposed to love ??

Is it shameful to look at someone who is family to you as your favorite snack , you want to eat it     , you want to taste it all time , you don't want to share it with anyone and when you it eat , it satisfies you more than  the four course meal in an overrated , expensive hotel in different town , just one bite is more satisfying than  surprise trip to Paris ,

" is everything ok ?" Asks me,

He voice is my life , he concern is my addiction and he's presence is my paradise.

Should I tell him , know how I feel ?

Or maybe I should go right in for a kiss , that will tell him how I feel ,

But I can't see him , he is not here.

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They is a secret of who he is to me but worry he's not my father .