Finding and Fighting My Apha

BLAKE'S POV

Hiya guys, if you've made it this far you are definitely a troop! Much love <3

So i'm making Trevor Blake a POV!!

Alpha Blake

Who does she thinks she is I asked myself, furious. She might be my mate but she has no right to talk to me like that, I will not allow it. I stormed off from her before I lost control, my wolf does not take disrespect very well and I don't blame him.  I caught a glimpse of myself in the living room mirror, my eyes where my forest green eyes stand out they were now littered with golden specks, signalling my wolf was getting restless and my control was slipping. I was walking upstairs when I heard the front door flew open and boxes went flying. "Well shit!" was heard around the room as she scolded herself for dropping the boxes. "Go help mate." My wolf spartan said , "No, she disrespected me." I snarled back."NO! Go to mate! Now!" he growled back . I just gave up and went down the stairs to find her struggling to pick up the second box. I put my hand on her hand gripping the box "Here let me grab this one." she looked taken aback a second before she snapped out of it "Okay." she said sheepishly. I quickly walked up the stairs with her trailing behind me, she stopped for second at the stairs leading to the third floor. She quickly shook off whatever dark power telling her not to go up there and caught up with my pace. She cant go up there, I won't allow it. No one has ever been up there before besides me, not even my Beta. He knows what up there but he doesn't dare go up there. I opened the door to her room and sat the box on the floor, I was about to turn around and walk out until I heard her "Thank you." she sweetly said. I was still angry with her so I just hummed and turned around and walked out of her room. I needed to go on a run or my wolf will take over and it will not be good, he's getting restless because our mate acts like she doesn't want us near her, she acts as if she hates us. As I thought those thoughts a pang of hurt shot right through my heart. Felt like my heart was ripping in two. I shifted into my midnight black wolf before I even got off the front porch steps. My wolf was as big as a bear and dark as the night, he had a patch of white below his belly, his head was massive. We took pride in how big and scary we were. I got pushed into the back of my mind and before I knew it we were bounding over fallen tree branches and dashing through the woods at an unbreakable speed. Our paws thundered against the ground and scared off any other animal scurrying into hiding. We stopped at a pond and lapped up the cold refreshing water. My wolf whined to go back to our mate but I wanted to relax for a bit longer. It was approximately 6:30 in the evening i had been running or about an hour now, I better get back before my wolf starts getting more restless than he already is, we made it back to the house in 20 min thanks to my wolf and his speed, I guess he really loved her. Annie, Annabelle. Her name brought shivers down my spine and heat all over my body, just thinking about her angelic face, her blonde curly waist length hair, her eyes as blue as the ocean, as blue as a blue day sky. Her heart shaped face, the freckles that littered her cheeks and up the bridge off her nose. Her plump rose pink lips. Her curvy body, she wasn't unfit by any means, she was simply perfect. Too perfect for my monstrous ways, I would destroy her, I have to keep my distance no matter how hard it will be. Ill call my sister tomorrow and inform her of my newly found mate and have her come to my house tomorrow morning and spend some time with her. That might give her something else to think about other than me. As I walked in the house I smelt something delicious and mouth watering coming from the kitchen. I walked into the kitchen and found my beautiful mate grabbing a plate so she could eat some of her good looking spaghetti. I took this chance to stand behind her just so she would bump into me and I would have an excuse to touch her, just to feel the comforting sparks and the warmth to radiate throughout my entire body. As she spun around I grasped her into my arms and loved the feeling of the sparks as the radiated throughout my entire body. The plate she was previously holding flew to the ground and erupted into a million pieces, I tried to move her away from the shards but my actions made her jump back and move to the side making her step on a shard of glass cutting her foot, she winced slightly and hobbled over the the bar stool sitting at the island. She hopped onto the stool and inspected her foot while there was blood gushing out of the wound. "Help mate!" spartan rushed through my mind, as I stood there frozen not knowing what to do. Stupid stupid, you hurt her I criticized in my head, I was angry with myself for hurting her. "Could you hand me a napkin." her sweet voice questioned. I snapped out of whatever daze I was trapped in and went the the counter looking for a napkin when I finally found one. I rushed over to her and put the napkin on the bottom of her foot and applied pressure to stop the bleeding she winced a little at the pressure being applied. "I got it." she stated and she grabbed the napkin from my hand and put the napkin in the same position I had it in. Once she was done inspecting the cut and making sure it wasn't going to bleed anymore she got up and grabbed the broom and started sweeping up the mess of glass on the floor. When she was finished she turned towards me "I made spaghetti, would you like a plate?" she questioned . I wanted to take her up on her offer and have a nice dinner with my  mate but I already hurt her and I cant hurt her anymore "No, I don't like spaghetti." I lied codly. "What? Who doesn't like spaghetti." My mate laughed a little trying to lighten the mood. I couldn't let her in, I would only hurt her I thought as I said the next part that I knew I would regret one day"Make sure you clean this mess up when your done." I stated rudley and coldly. "Sure." she stated, I looked down to look in her eyes to find her staring at the ground, she was hurt I know she was but I couldn't let her get mixed into my mess of a life. I walked out of the kitchen but stopped in my tracks when I heard a sob break through, it tore me apart inside to know I was the reason she was crying, I wanted to turn back around and run into the kitchen and tell her I was sorry over and over but I had to do this to keep her safe I thought to myself as I made it to my room. I needed a shower, I probably stunk from running through the wood for half an hour. I started to warm up the shower, I stood in front of the mirror and looked at myself. "What are you doing you idiot." I murmured to myself. My eyes were drained of life, my face looked sickly pale. My jet black hair was sticking up all over the place, I looked like shit. The hurtful things I was doing to Annabelle were killing me but I would do it over and over again if that would mean she would be safe from my monstrous ways. I got into shower and let the warm water run over my body , I watched the dirty water run down the drain. I scrubbed axe body wash on my body and washed my hair with it also, that's what I like about being a guy. We don't have to spend hundreds of dollars on body wash, shampoo, and conditioner. One works for all. Once I rinsed off I sulked in the shower for another thirty minutes just because. I got out and dried my hair, wrapped the towel around my waist and brushed my teeth. I walked into the room and just laid on my bed completely butt naked too tired to get dressed, too tired to care really. That's how i fell asleep, exhausted, naked and hating myself.