body and soul

Chapter 10 : A Memory Or A Dream!!

"you killed him.. You killed my lover.. You are a monster"
"help me.. I lost everything "
" It's okay Hazel.. I can fix that"
"you need to die "
A strong sob came out and I opened my eyes in panic. I felt my lungs is out of Breath, My chest was raising and falling quickly and my throat was hurting. I straightened myself from bed then tried to organize my breath.
The images of what I saw were repeating itself in my head. I didn't know.. Was that a dream or... A memory..
For a moment I felt scared and unsafe . I wanted someone to be close to me. I wanted someone to be around. Then I remembered him ; that I'm no longer alone in this house and this in somehow comfort me.
I looked around and I found him sleeping in the couch in front of me. I stood up and got closer to him. I got down on my knees and I kept gazing at every inch of his sleepy face. I didn't know why I gazed that much but maybe I wanted to make sure that I'm not alone. I really have someone around..

It was 8 am, I didn't feel like sleeping anymore so I decided to take a quick shower.
I took my shower before I start gazing at the mirror in the mirror . I was slowly combing my hair while thinking of what I saw tonight. that dream seemed so vivid and real, like it's something happened to me, like a memory. But what if it's really a memory ? Did I actually killed her lover? Did I know that he was already her lover?!!

The picture of her begging me not to kill him was haunting me and running all over my brain . Her teary eyes, her shudder voice and her screams were echoing in my ears when I looked at her eyes and then stabbed him..
I took a deep breath because I felt suffocated. I put on new clothes and I got out of bathroom then went down stairs.
Before entering the kitchen I looked at the music device on the table corner. I thought that maybe some music would draw my thoughts away.
I held it and I pressed shuffle to choose a random song. Then I took it with me in the kitchen while making myself something to eat.
The song  (let her go) by passenger played . I was singing Harmoniously and My body was slightly Swaying with the song . I made the volume up and I started to sing louder with it.
I always loved when music is up and just for some moments I forgot the whole world and ignore my demons.
I closed my eyes and I smiled at that feeling..

(Mathew pov)
The sun ray forced me to turn my face away once I opened my eyes. It took me a moment to remember what I'm doing in that classy House. Then I remembered her. That I'm no longer alone minding my own business as always .
This girl is about to change a lot in my life. And I had no idea what this change was about to take me.
I stood up and heard a sound of music coming from down stairs . I went down to find the sound of music coming from the kitchen.
Then I found her..  playing music while swaying and singing with it. I saw Her Untied long brown hair dropping down, moving and shining on her back. She was busy making her breakfast so she didn't notice my existence. I found that it was interesting to watch her without noticing me. I lean on the wall and kept watching her with crossed arms. Till the moment she turned around to see me.
She panicked and I smiled at her scary face.
" make some noise please " she said  " when did you wake up? " she asked while opening a jar of jam.
" It's hard to sleep with this much noise. " I said
" It's not noise it's music " she said pressing on her last word " moreover. I'm not used to have somebody around. For a moment I thought that I'm by myself " she said with sarcastic smile.

(Hazel pov)
It was completely unusual and uncomfortable to have somebody around in the house. I have been living alone for almost 2 months since I found myself here , so It was hard to get used to it. That's why I panicked when I saw him watching me, but I convinced myself that I have to get used to it, it's just a temporary situation.

We both was making our breakfast in silence.  I felt his eyes on me from time to time when I looked away . But I acted like I didn't notice that.

I was struggling to open the jar of jam with my hands. so I went to grab the opener from the shelf .
Once I brought it I found Mathew opened the jar I was holding and trundle it to me on the table . He took a bite of and an apple with Provocative look . He wanted to deliver a massage (you weak).
In my turn I grabbed another jar of jam and I opened it with my bare hands with a challenge look. Then i trundle it to him as he did. I delivered a similar massage (f*ck you I'm not weak ).
I saw Mathew smiled at my challenged attitude. I wanted to smile too but I resist it.
I saw Mathew grabbed another jar and opened it then trundle it on the table. I also grabbed another one and did the same then trundle it on the table to him. I glanced at Mathew and I saw him raising one eye brows in a trickery way . I understand that he wanted us to challenge each other with opening jars. We both smiled a malicious smile in silence. and started to challenge each other with opening jars and trundle them to each other as fast as we could . It wasn't easy to open them with bare hands, but that was the challenge.
I found a big smile on our both faces while we were challenging each other. Mathew opened about 4 jars and I opened 5.
I looked at the table while we both were struggling to open our jars and I found that it was only one jar left. I pressed as much as I could to open the jar I was holding to reach the last one before Mathew did . I used all my power to open it with a big challenge smile on my face and his too. Me and Mathew opened our jars at the same time Then we throw ourselves to reach the last one before we kinked our legs together to fall on each other then we saw the jar fall to pieces.
We were laying at the kitchen floor Laughing out loud that we felt pain in our stomach and hardly taking our breath.
" omg.. I didn't laugh like that for a long time ago " he said
" me too.. " I said " actually I don't remember " I continued with a sarcastic laugh. he laughed in his turn too and straighten himself to look at me.
" I'm a girl with zero memories who suppose to save the city " I laughed more but it wasn't a happy laugh anymore. I saw Matthew's smile faded slowly from his face and His eyes were looking directly into mine. "  I understand how it feels " he said in quite tone.
" no you don't.. And you don't have to. " I said " maybe it's my fate.. It's a battle I just have to fight in . I tried before to run away form my life and it costs me my memory and my soul. Despite of everything I lost, I still have to fight." I said
"There's nowhere you can be that isn't where you meant to be.. You're born to be a fighter. Not with arrows and bows but with this " he said while pointing at my heart and gazing at my eye " you're gonna get everything back that has been taken away from you.. And you gonna save all those people who really believe in Hazel Arthur . And you gonna Eliminate evil and whoever support it " he said with a strong supportive tone pressing on every word. And to be honest, I like how he believed in Hazel and how much she can do.