The Series Of Relatable Anxiety Scares

Presenting Infront Of Everyone Else

One of the worst things I have ever heard multiple times is: "you will have to present this in front of the class". Goosebumps, shivers, nausea, instant migraine. Some people I know think I'm overreacting, but seriously.. instant panic.

The thought of making something decent enough to not get judged or even to get a good grade, practising how you'll say it for hours so you don't mess up, crying over it, leaving it till the last minute and not understanding it. For gods sake, why can't my mind just chill the hell out, or even why do I have to present it in front of EVERYONE?! "To increase your confidence" I don't need confidence thank you, don't want it either.. the thought of being able to speak out loud.. *a shiver rolls down my back* no.

The day comes..
Its the only thing you can think of during the other lessons... you randomly zone out every 5 minutes imagining what could happen, your hands get sweaty and they start to shake more than they normally do. "Are you ok?" Well that's a dumb question, I'm speaking in front of a whole class today in 5th period! WORST. NIGHTMARE.

Fifth period comes.
You act confident around you friends on the way to your lesson, making it look like you're fine while inside you're just screaming your lungs apart. You moan a little, then wonder if you're annoying them.. so you decide to walk ahead a little bit while they talk amongst themselves without you like normal. You start to rethink what you put in your presentation, did I do it wrong? Did I do it completely different to everybody else's? Am I going to get a detention? Omg, what if I get set another presentation?! What if I do that wrong too?!!

You're finally sitting in your assigned seat. You shyly look around to see if anyone else is worried.. they all look confident.. intimidating. You panic for a second, you calm down. You read your book for the first ten minutes of the lesson and settle in your own world in the book that you're reading. 10 minutes later, the teacher voice makes you jump, even if it's the softest voice of them all. You slouch so you don't get picked first. You weren't picked, RELIEF. But, you'll get picked at some point.

A few presentations go by..

Your name gets called. You suddenly awake from your worried daydream: "mhm?" You realise why she said your name.. you start to panic as you walk to the front of the class, your hands shaking. You stutter at first but you manage to roughly, slowly and awkwardly present your work. You sit back down and you want to cry because you feel like you did it wrong.. did anyone laugh? I couldn't hear anything.. did I say something incorrectly? Oh please don't say I said something incorrectly..

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Thank you so much for reading this, strangers!
I hope I'm not the only one who thinks like this. Eep. It may be slightly overreacted though because I got carried away, specially at the end.

More coming soon!

I worry too much and I get that it's a problem, trust me.. I'm working on it! 😂