It Starts With You

The best part of me is leaving

Miriya was crying all night i dont know how im gonna deal with another baby i called my mom  Sabach alkhair she greeted me sabach al noor i greeted back kayf halik ya bint my mom doesnt speak english so i have to speak arabic to her ana bekhair mom wa anta  i asked alhamduiliah mama said mama um wen baba (mom wheres dad) i asked nervously huna liche(here why) la maafi mama ok she hands the phone to my english speaking father well hes from sudan but can speak english better than my mom hello shayla he greets me hello baba why do u call this morning he asked me because i wanted to let you know im pregnant again and idk what to do i cried make dua he said pray to allah for help ok baba mama ana ahebak massalama ok yallah bye i felt arms snake around my waist i tensed up but heard the familiar chuckled of my husband  you sound so cute when you speak arabic he said i turned facing him and put my arms around his shoulders stop trying to be cute im mad at you he gasped and pretended to be hurt Harris if you wouldnt wanna do it all the time  i wouldnt be in this position well this baby is a blessing he said and i told you we got this he said pulling me back close to him  how how do we have this you 7mar i asked him because im going on tour for the next few months and that means  money he smiled what i screamed whispered because Miriya was finally asleep harris now im really mad i say pushing him away from me  what he said this could be good i know but the best part of me is leaving i say upset i know im going to miss you too but you have Mir Mir his nickname for our daughter around I know but I'll miss cuddling the two of you until we sleep and you'll have this lil bean around he said rubbing my belly and giving it a kiss hm not for that well I'm here now so you want to go cuddle while Miriya is asleep yea I smiled let's go he took my right hand and we went to the room and cuddle until I took a nap