An Open Diary

Chapter 1

Chapter 1 - My young love story

Have you ever feel in love? Have you ever experience to be court by a guy? Have you ever feel betrayed yourself?

Yes. I both feel it and it hurts. On my childhood days, there's a guy who interested on me but I don't like him. I already told him that I don't like him and I'm not ready for a relationship that time. But then, the transferee guy caught my heart. I feel in love just a second.

I make a move to be friends with him since he came from the other block section. Luckily, I have friends there. So in a short period of time, we became friends and closed. Even our both families know each other but not as closed like us.

Sooner, this guy ask me if we can be a lover. I said yes even I know my parents would be mad at me after. Suddenly, this girl interrupted our celebration that day and she told me that she likes my lover. This girl is not a common friend but a closest and a big sister to me.

In just a second, everything went wrong. I need to choose and I choose my "Ate" over him. I told him to wait for me and he said yes.

But after we graduate, our communication were gone too. No phone numbers. No social media account. His family went back to province and start over again there.

For 11 years, I, Shasha Alejandro, still in pain and hopeless. I want to move on but my heart still hoping to his return but until when.

2 years ago, I received a friend request in one of my social media account. Dang. He chatted me. He asked me how's my life going and so on. But I noticed something, he's in a relationship.

For those years of waiting, I feel betrayed. The loved I gave to that person was part of the past of him. I hope one day, I find that guy who will make me happy and with God's grace. Also, I want to move on but - - ugh. "You stupid heart! Listen to me okay? Let's moving on."

01.19.2020