I Never Told You

Chapter 18

Amy was at a loss for words. She didn't know what to say, the truth was, even she didn't know how she felt about Karma. She loved her; she really really did but j she just didn't know in what way.

"Say something, please." Karma said.

"I just don't know what to say." Amy said, still completely lost.

"Say anything, just say something." Karma said.

"I need some time." Amy said.

"Time?" Karma asked.

"To decide how I feel." Amy said.

"Okay, take all the time you need." Karma said.

Amy and Karma just stared at each other for a couple of seconds, both of them had a lot they wanted to say but they just couldn't. Amy left after that, confused and uncertain about what she wanted her and Karma to be.

Karma felt numb. She didn't know how to feel, she'd finally told Amy how she felt and she had no idea if Amy felt the same way. Even though she had nothing to say, Karma felt like talking to someone about what had happened and so she called Shane.

"Hello." Shane said, answering the phone.

"Hey." Karma said.

"What's up?" Shane asked.

"I just told Amy I loved her." Karma said.

"So, what happened? How did you tell her? What did she say?" Shane asked, excitedly.

"She came back from her date with Francia and told me that things were over between them and then I told her I love her." Karma said.

"What did she say?" Shane asked.

"Nothing at first and then she said she wanted time." Karma said.

"What did you say?" Shane asked.

"I told her she could take all the time she needed. "Karma said.

"Oh." Shane said, at a loss for words, maybe for the very first time.

"What does she mean by she needs time?" Karma asked, after a couple of minutes of silence.

"Maybe she's just a little confused about how she feels, she and Francia did just break up." Shane said.

"I know but what if she doesn't feel the same way, is this her way of telling me? By asking for time?" Karma asked.

"Her asking for time doesn't mean she doesn't feel the same way, it just means that she needs time to figure it all out." Shane said.

"I hope you're right." Karma said.

As the events of the night began to sink in, Karma grew more and more fearful of Amy not feeling the same way. What was she going to do if Amy didn't feel the way? She couldn't live without her.

Amy had never been this confused. She was caught completely off guard by Karma's feelings for her. She'd dreamt of the day Karma would fall in love with her but she'd never thought it would come true, so much so that she'd began dating Francia to move on. Amy had been thinking about Francia and their relationship when her phone buzzed. It was a text from Francia.

"I'm sorry about the way things ended." Francia's text read.

Amy just stared at her phone for a second and then began typing, "Me too, you're really amazing Francia and I hope we can be friends."

Amy's phone buzzed again within a second. It was a text from Francia.

"Me too. Can you do me a favor though?" Francia's text read.

Amy thought for a second and then replied, "Sure."

"Follow your heart Amy. You know what you want, just don't let your fear of things not working out, get in the way of you getting exactly what you want." Francia's text read.

"Thanks." Amy replied, without even thinking about it.

"Always." Francia replied, within a second.

Amy was rendered speechless. She didn't know what Francia was referring to but it moved Amy. She knew Francia was right; Amy had always been scared of following her heart. But the question was, what did her heart want? Who did her heart want?

Amy and Karma had been avoiding each other all day until their English literature class, which they had together. Their teacher was now teaching them Moby Dick, but no one was listening. Their teacher continued to talk and so did the kids.

Amy was looking around the class, absent-mindedly when her eyes fell on Karma. Karma was sitting by the window, the sunlight falling on her face. Her hair shining in the light and perfectly framing her face, her lips covered in red lipstick, Karma's favorite. Karma was the most beautiful girl, Amy had ever seen; and it was in that moment that she realized what her heart wanted, who her heart wanted.

Amy couldn't wait for class to get over, she couldn't wait to tell Karma how she felt. As soon as the class got over, everybody rushed out and Amy lost Karma in the crowd. She pushed herself out and looked around for Karma; but she was nowhere to be found. It was when Amy had completely lost hope, that she saw Karma walking toward the parking lot through the little patch of grass between the lockers and the parking lot.

Without even realizing it, Amy had begun running toward Karma. Amy only caught up with Karma when Karma had reached her car. Amy pulled Karma by the arm to get them face each other and without thinking or saying anything, she kissed Karma.

That kiss was better than either of them had ever imagined; it was so full of anticipation, frustration, excitement, uncertainty but most of all, it was full of love. They'd both imagine a billion times what it would feel like to finally kiss the other, they'd both felt like nothing could ever be as good as  what they'd imagine but this was different, it was better, it was real.

Once they finally came up for air, Karma looked into Amy's eyes, a little confused.

"I love you too. I'm sorry I didn't say it last night, it just took me a while to realize it, but I love you too, so much." Amy said, smiling.

Karma smiled at Amy and kissed her. All the wait, confusion, jealousy and pain had been worth it. They'd finally found their way to each other, the way they'd both always hoped they would. Things were still scary and confusing but a little less with the other by their side, ready to start the rest of their lives together.