A wise woman once said we are products of our environment, how right was she?
I killed for him; not for the love of something that can never mine, but violence in my life pulled my soul towards the darkness but I fought to free my soul. Men are the...
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I stood at the top of my warehouse standing by the edge as a part of Dallas came to view. Dallas and New York are like night and day but when came to Devil there was no difference. Souls were souls. If you belong to him there was no say so in the matter. My hands were place in pockets a nervous tick I pick up as a child, I usually fondly with a lucky rock I carried but I haven't place one since moment I realize there was no such thing as lucky rocks. The air was breezy as the feeling of being alone ate me whole. Alone and lonely Two different words One meaning no one is present and the other meaning without companions. What is the difference? I chuckled The thing is there really isn't one.
I try shake notion of overthinking as I remind myself today is Friday.
The day I will meet the woman James set me with, someone off a Craigslist ad. I am Alek Fucking Valentino, I didn't need some hooker from a fuck me ad, I can get any woman I wanted. But ... That's the thing I didn't. All I wanted was my daughter and Mia Luce to give me a chance to be in her life. I look down as busy cars roamed up and down the streets making me think. My problems are not that bad, right? Could be worse?
I walked off the roof top to hit the gym and trying to work on my self indulgence out because dwelling on past isn't going help me now.
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Couple hours at gym didn't seem help, fuck, Nothing seems to distract me from all events that has happened in the past couple months. I decide to shave my beard and mustache off I couldnt decide if this removed would help me feel like a new man. Or maybe I won't look as broken.
And just maybe tonight during this meet and greet, will be enough to distract me from the news I got in while I was in Italy.
I decided to text her, hoping she would cancel. Nope, how wrong was I. The whole day we were texting on and off small questions with simple answers.
James and Art were right, she's attractive girl but I couldn't help but to questioned, 'what's wrong with her?'
As she answers quick questions I try pick all red flags I can sense but nothing to crazy stands out other her weekend hobby is to attend the shooting range . But knowing women I know it's just a fake persona to intimidated me but doesn't work. Plus we're in Texas and every one owns a gun. Little quirks I've learned about being an Texan of who I am not. Can't say I didn't enjoy this state or my time here but I knew it was getting closer to also leave this behind.
