I still don't see myself okay with it.
I still feel an unease in me when I hear his name.
I still feel goosebumps when I think that how I'll react or say if we accidently bump into each other some day.
I still feel a little pain in my chest when I question myself "what if he has moved on in his life? "
I still feel tears rolling over my cheeks when I remember those stupid moments spent with him.
It's a mixed feeling that only I can understand.
Because it's a feeling of how badly I need him right now but I don't want him.
Does that make sense?
