𝑷𝒆𝒓𝒇𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏 - 𝐓𝐨𝐦 𝐇𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝 {𝟐} (On Hold)

Part 17

Y/N'S POV

I feel like there's a bright light aiming right at me face and I squeeze my eyes tighter. I rub my eyes with my hand for a second before I slowly open them. I'm not in the right state of mind, but the sun shining straight into my eyes is bothering the crap out of me. I groan and turn my face away from the glare. I close my eyes hoping to go back to sleep, but then my eyes burst open. I lift my head up slowly and when I see Tom sound asleep I scream. I scramble off of him and he jolts wide awake. I back up far away from the couch and when he sees me his eyes widen. He stands up from the couch and I put my hand out in front of me,

"Stop! Don't come near me.", I say, voice shaky and he puts his hands up in defence. I immediately feel my body to make sure every single piece of clothing is all there. I look back at him and he's just staring at me,

"What the hell did you do?", I ask,

"What do you mean?", he asks and an offended look appears on his face,

"Did-Did you like drug me or something? There's no way I would've just came here.", I say,

"Is that how low you think of me?", he asks,

"I-I don't know. Just did you drug me or something?!", I ask getting impatient,

"No! I would never do that!", he says,

"Then-Then how did I get here? Why was I on top of you?", I ask and I'm about to run my hand through my hair and then I notice my hand, "What the hell happened to my hand?!", I ask freaked out,

"Okay, first settle down.", he says and takes a step forward,

"No I said stay there!", I yell at him. He stops moving and stays put,

"Last night you showed up drunk off your ass and you were a mess-", but I interrupt him,

"So you took advantage of me?!", I say fuming,

"Would you stop accusing me of things and let me fucking finish!", he yells. My breathing is heavy and my heart is racing, "I helped you, you're hand was bleeding because you said you cut it on some glass and then I wasn't taking advantage of you, you had a breakdown and I comforted you then we happened to fall asleep.", he says. I look at him cautiously not sure if he's telling the truth, 

"Is that all?", I ask him. He pauses hesitantly for a second before he nods his head, "There's something you're not telling me.", I say to him,

"That's all.", he lies,

"No, no it's not. What are you hiding?", I ask, hoping it's not what I'm thinking,

"I- you said some things last night.", he says,

"Well, whatever I said wasn't true.", I say quickly,

"You said you loved me.", he says and my eyes widen. Shit. My mouth falls agape and I don't know what to say,

"Well, I was drunk and vulnerable. I didn't know what I was saying.", I say,

"Bullshit.", he scoffs and looks away from me,

"Excuse me?", I snap,

"I said bullshit! Why can't you just tell the fucking truth for once?!", he says and looks back over at me,

"You can't tell me how I feel Tom!", I yell at him,

"I don't have to because you already know how you feel! You know you love me! Why can't you just admit it already!", he yells and comes over to me. I stare at him disgusted and I shake my head,

"You are a such a narcissistic, self-centred dick! I will never love you nor will anyone else. I will never love a man like you. You're a player and a liar. You don't know how to love, you're incapable of love. I might of said some things last night, but everything I did say is what I felt in the past. That was before I knew the real you. So get that in your fucking head! I. Will. Never. Love. You.", I spit. Every word I say his facial expression changes. He looks down at me and I feel like I'm going to explode at any second. I push past him and start gathering my things. As I go over to the door and put my shoes on he stops me,

"If you claim that you don't love me, you will walk out that door and I will leave you alone for that rest of your life.", he says. I stand up and look over at him. His jaw is clenched and his nostrils are flaring, but his eyes show so much hurt. He stares at me waiting for me to do something. I'm about to say something, but I immediately shut my mouth. I take a deep breath and I grab all my things and open the door, but I freeze before I step out. I close my eyes to the ground. The silence is gut-wrenching compared to the shouting that just happened. I stand up straighter and that's when I step out and close the door behind me.