Regina's Darkness

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Kate: i saw the way you looked at Emma. It was so....seductive

Regina: i did no such thing!

Kate: you did, you two couldn't stop the googly eyes!

Regina: she is cute.... Did she say anything about me?

Kate: Yeah she said you're hot but everyone does. Why do you care?

Regina: because....

Kate: omg you like her! Dude I think she's perfect for you!

Regina: really?

Kate: absofreakinglutely! She's so open minded and cool, just your cup of tea.

Regina: perfect, just make sure she comes to the party kay?

Kate: okay!

That conversation with Kate was all I needed. I did my research, we locked eyes, now all I need to do is get to know Emma on a deeper level and chuck my obsessive ways out of the window. I will try until I die to change for my soulmate. This opportunity I cannot pass up!

"Who are you texting?" I groan at that annoying voice! I swear he's like a lost puppy looking for a new home. I am not his home and I will never love him or any man.

Killian Jones is a college student who's father is friends with my father. We've been 'together' since a year before my mom died so it's been almost 4 years. I was thirteen when my dad pushed him onto me. He feels that Killian is what I need to over come my lesbian ways. After mom died, I tried to leave him but mom already told dad about my darkness and he insisted that I keep Killian in my life for my sanity. It's more for public appearance, truth be told, so I let my father and Killian believe I love him. I'm not going to kill dad's ego because I care too much about him.

But it's men like Killian that makes me hate the gender; men that I seem to always encounter for some reason. I just see it as fate. I wasn't meant to love a man and they weren't meant to love me but the abuse is so uncalled for. I've put up with it for far too long and now that I'm older, I don't let Killian have it so easy anymore.

"Kate," I mumble lowly.

"Well I'm right here so put the phone down love," it seems like a cute little suggestion but in reality it's an order. An order I don't listen to; one that frustrates me. I let the warm breeze of the sunset calm me and continue to swing on my hammock as I begin to scroll on my phone. Mom always says when I feel urges or depressed that I should look at pictures of things I love. Food or baby animals? Food it is....oh that lobster looks so good and juicy!

"Regina," he nearly growls his warning.

"Party on Saturday. Don't be late and don't embarrass me." This time I look at him.

He tends to go overboard at parties to show off. There is never a time where he goes to a party and puts me in the most embarrassing situations to cower from. One time he tried to chug a whole keg of beer. Not only did he fail but he got extremely drunk and peed his pants while dancing with me. I shouldn't have danced with him in the first place but he made me. I didn't feel like fighting him in front of his college friends.

"Why would I embarrass you?" He questions with the most innocent smile he can make. I roll my eyes and focus back on my phone. This time he snatches it away.

"What the hell!"

"I'm your boyfriend, not this damn phone! Pay attention to me!" He barks angrily.

"Fuck you!" A sharp sting bursts on my cheek and spreads all across my face. Of course I'm surprised by it because really? I get smacked over something as petty as that? But this proves I did change, I could kill him right now for that. Thoughts of me knocking him in the head with a rock and pushing him in the pool to drown are screaming for me to do it, but I don't. To be better for Emma.