Makeup smeared eyes

Cruel Cruel

Juliet P.O.V.

October 30th 2011
   Here we were, Warped Tour again. It's all the same, Automatic Love Letter hasn't been going for that long but I'm so hurt I don't even care. I broke up with Parker a couple weeks ago, we're friends and I guess in glad he's not sad. Still...it hurts, I cared about him a lot and then I didn't and saw him as a friend. He didn't know until I broke up with him and it broke my heart to see him cry.
Anyways, Tommy was helping set up for our performance that was in an hour and I was practicing my vocals when the most annoying person at Warped came up to me, none other than Andrew Dennis Biersack himself
"What up Dragonfly?" The pale Black Veil Brides vocalist asked in the most mocking tone he could muster up. He called me Dragonfly because I supposedly was as impacting as a bug. I don't understand why he is so mean to me, but two can play that game.
"Hey? Staring at me again are you?" Andy smirked waving his hand in my face. "No. I was deciding whether or not to waste my time talking to you. White Rabbit." I lightly punched his arm, just to show him how vulnerable he was. "Oh that was mean, why do you treat me like this?" He winced sarcastically. "Oh come on! Your weaker than a girl!" I scolded just as Tommy sneaked up to me,"Time up!" I jumped at this surprise, I hadn't foreseen that. "Hey!" I turned around and hit his chest." That was mean!" Ugh, my brown eyed brother laughed at me, but that wasn't the worst part, he had humiliated me in front of Andy. So sure enough when I turned back around his clear blue eyes were glistening with humor behind his long hair and eyeliner. I let out an exasperated breath before walking out on stage."Look alive sunshine." Was the last thing I heard from the vocalist behind me.
"I wanna run away
To somewhere far and somewhere safe
So scared of this place
Cause you don't even know me
And you don't even care that I've been lonely
And tired of fighting in the den of the lions where I won't even try
And in the dead of the night I wait
Early morning and I still haven't got some sleep
Call me crazy
Call me baby
You can call me weak
You don't even know, no you don't even know

That the weight of the world on me
I've been there and back again
And it seems to me
That a promise isn't something you keep
And a secret never lasts
It only sees what you see

Cause it's a cruel cruel ride
And if you want to come inside
You better sit up and shut your eyes
And hold on for dear life
Cause if you don't then you will surely lose your mind
But I won't

I wanna hide my face
I wanna find the strength to get through this
Oh I know I can do it

It's the taste in my mouth
It's the nauseousness
It's my stomach in knots forming cascades of gunshots
Leaving me holding a pen and this page and these words filled with rage

In the dead of the night I wait
Early morning and I still haven't got some sleep
Call me crazy
Call me baby
You can call me weak
Because you don't even know

Cause it's a cruel cruel ride
And if you want to come inside
You better sit up and shut your eyes
And hold on for dear life
Cause if you don't then you will surely lose your mind
But I won't
I won't

"Hello, can anyone hear me?"
"Oh, does anyone know me?"
"No, can anyone hear me?"
"No, can anyone love me?"
"No, can anyone, can anyone hear me?"

Cause it's a cruel cruel ride
And if you want to come inside
You better sit up and shut your eyes
And hold on for dear life
Cause if you don't then you will surely lose your mind
But I won't
But I won't
I won't
I won't "

Andy P.O.V.

"Cause it's a cruel cruel ride, And if you want to come inside, You better sit up and shut your eyes,
And hold on for dear life, Cause if you don't then you will surely lose your mind, But I won't, But I won't, I won't, I won't " I sang deeply from backstage of the A.L.L. concert, i'd never tell anyone (much less Juliet) but i'm a huge fan of their music. Honestly, its the only one who speaks for me. I broke up with Scout last month, and it got me thinking about my past relationships. im the one who always messes everything up, i'm starting to believe love is pointless. Slowly I headed to the B.V.B. tour bus, i definetly didn't want to be found here.

   When I got to the bus, the guys were watching The Walking Dead, Jake loves it. "Hey An- okay, whats up?" Ashley droped his chips and rushed over to me. "Nothing." I told him as i shoved my way past him to get to my bunk at the back of the bus. Once there, he sat next to me,"You're thinking about it again aren't you?" my best friend read my mind with eyes full of sadness. "Yea." I sighed."Dude, the only reason it hasen't worked before is because life has somthing great ready for you." Ash told me in a hushed voice, understanding i wanted no one else in on this. I diden't know what to respond, I knew somewhere deep inside that maybe he was right, since he always was. Ashley is the only one I actually spill to, the only one I truly trust. He has been there for me when no one has, ever since the original members of the band left, he's the only one who stayed. The bassist got up and left, then, the next thing i know, he hands me a beer. "Come on, lets get drunk and forget about all of this nonsense." I know the guys hate it when we do this, but for tonight, I couldn't  let myself care. We drank, and soon one bottle turned to two, and two turned to twelve. "Ashy?" I got out in a slurred voice. "Huh?" My best friend answered in his own slow voice."I think we should go outside and do something." I stated stupidly. "Like what?" He bumped into me as we tried to stand, and we landed on the wall right of our bunks. "Anything!" I told him, the alchohol was blurring my sense of logic. "You know what?" He laughed,"We're going to break the law tonight!" "How?" I wondered aloud. "Got no clue, but i can feel it" That was the last thing i remembered that night.