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𝐒𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠!
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Stanley's POV:

I decided that Will was probably right. And that I should text him saying that I'm sorry.
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                      ✯𝙱𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝙳𝚎𝚗𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑✯

Stanley: Hi...
Bill: Hi, what do you want?
Stanley: I'm sorry, like really sorry
Bill: why where you avoiding me all day?!
Stanley: I thought that you didn't trust me
Bill: what?
Stanley: when you came out as gay and you didn't tell me who your crush was, I thought you didn't trust me
Bill: well, I'm not gay
Stanley: what?
Bill: it was a misunderstanding
Stanley: I got to go, bye
Bill: bye
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My heart broke into a million pieces. Bills not gay, it was just a misunderstanding? The boy I have loved for so many years who came out to me as gay, is not gay anymore, it was just a stupid misunderstanding!? Is this my fault, an I the reason he's not gay, maybe he's BI? I decided to take a bath (I'm sorry) and think about it.

I got in the warm bath tub and laid down. I thought about me coming out to my parents, not a good thought. I saw a razor sitting on the shelf. I picked it up and started staring at it. What if I just....killed
myself? I won't ever have to think about these thoughts ever again. I slowly started cutting my thigh, the red blood oozed out of my pale skin and started turning the bath water a light shade of red. It was only a small cut but it hurt quite a bit. The pain felt oddly good though, like every time I cut myself a bad thought would go away. I started to cut my left thigh, I only made 2 marks. The bath water became a dark red, my hands where covered in blood and so was the razor. I washed my hands in the sink and got ready for dinner.

"ℑ 𝔰𝔥𝔬𝔲𝔩𝔡 𝔡𝔬 𝔱𝔥𝔦𝔰 𝔪𝔬𝔯𝔢 𝔬𝔣𝔱𝔢𝔫"

Authors note: I'm so, so, so, so, so, so, so sorry, here's some random things I have in my camera roll to cheer you up!