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I STARED DOWN MY FEET, tapping my fingers nervously at my lap. We decided that we should just talk at the rooftop.
It has a good view of the eiffel tower. And since it's night, The tower is Brighting like a star.
But, Our mood today is not what we wanted. I'm tired.
I'm always breaking whenever I would meet her, I just. I feel like...
I wanted to end this.
But something is telling me that I should hold on.
"Sometimes, Holding on. Does more damage. Than letting go." I spoke, Looking at the tower.
I felt her looked at me surprise by my words.
"Why are you still looking for me when I thought we are already done?" I asked. She bit her lips, And decided to talked.
"Becouse, I already confirmed my feelings about you. I know sorry can't fix all of this mess. But, I'm sorry. And I promise, I won't leave you unless you leave me." A tear fell on her right cheek but she immediately wipe it off and smiled.
I don't know. But I think. These past few years, I realized that, I was torturing myself.
And I know that I wasn't the only one who got tortured every night, every day, always.
She was also.
I flip my hair, Hiding my emotions. I wanna break in. But I can't anymore. As if, My tears are always dry becouse of my silent cries every night.
"When the times I was chasing you, did you ever look back?" Her expression got stunned, Until a few tears fell.
"When the times I cried at night, Are you there for me when I need a comfort?" She back away from me.
She's so close, yet so far away from me.
"Jennie, I don't want this to happened. But this is our fate. We are not meant to be together." She covered her ears, looking down.
"S-stop. Don't say that. I love you, That's what all matters. Even though, Y-you don't love me back. It's fine. Just..just please stop shoving to my face that I don't love you. Becouse that's not the truth." She tried to look at me.
I love her, But anytime I would approach her, every time I would love her. I keep getting hurt. And she always leave me.
"Demon's doesn't fell inlove. Kim Jennie."
I crouched down her level since she's now in her knees. Her tears keep falling at the ground.
And it hurts to see her like this, That's why I wanted to end it. I don't want any of us gets hurt.
It's for the best. I tucked a strand of a hair on her ear, she keeps messing her hair, and covering her ears, Crying.
It hurts. It hurts so much.
I grip on my shirt, Right Infront of my heart.
"I'm sorry, I know that you will find someone that is more better than me. You will also find someone that will always sing a song for you every night."
I remember those memories, we would sleep at the rooftop of our house and I would always sing a song for her.
"You will find someone that will always gives you kisses everyday." She shakes her head left and right.
"You will find someone that will always be by your side." It's just sad that, In the end. The person that will be by her side, Is not me.
"And you will find someone that will love you more than me." And finally, I let my tears out. I cried with her.
I wanna hug her, But I don't want my feelings to win. I wiped her tears in her cheeks and stand up.
This will the be the end. This is it.
The last day that I will see her. The last day that I will smell her scent. The last day that I will talked to her.
I pulled her into a hug and kissed her.
The last day that I will hug and kissed her.
"I believe in you, That you will find someone better than me." I broke the hug, but she was still holding.
"Let go, I promised. It will be hurt less." After that, Her hands fell. Breaking our entangled hands together.
