What I Want

2

"Lily! Get up!" I hear my moms loud voice, all the way from the kitchen.

I drag myself up and walk down the stairs. I go into the kitchen to see my mom laughing with some young, topless man. Or should I say boy.

"Mom? Who the hell is this?"

She twirls around and grabs the man, no boys, hand.

"This is Matt. He's my boyfriend." She smiles proudly.
"Since when?"

"Yesterday?" She says, more like asks.

"Whatever, I'm going to get dressed." I roll my eyes.

"Don't have that attitude with me young lady!" My mom shouts after me.
"Honestly, I don't know who brought that girl up." She mumbles.

"Definitely not dad. Or you for that matter." I whisper. If only I had the confidence to say that out loud.

I get dressed into my denim shorts and loose green blouse.

After washing my face and brushing my teeth, I hear a knock at the door.

If that's Kallum, I think I'll just die.

I walk downstairs, only to hear moms obnoxious voice.

"Lily! Your boyfriends here!"

What. The. Hell.

I run downstairs and see my mum staring at Kallum.

"Mom?"

"You didn't tell me you had a boyfriend!" She screeches.

"I'll explain later, got to go." I yell after as I run out of the door, grabbing Kallum's hand.

"Woah, chill."

"Chill? Why did you tell my mom we're dating?" I yell.

"Because we have to tell people we are?"

"I'm not so sure about this Kallum." I sigh, brushing my hair out of my face.

"Lil, you fucking said you would! Your not quitting now!" He groans.

"Lil?"

"Yeah, cos' you're so small, like little. Lil."

"Whatever, fine. Just drive."
He gets into the car, leaving me stood on the path.

Okay, I'll open my own door. Jeez.

He starts the engine and we ride in silence, apart from his loud, rock music playing.

Every time I try to turn it down, he replies with, "Dont fucking touch my radio." Or he just turns it back up again.

When we finally get to school, he opens his door.

"Ready?"

"Uh..."

"Yeah you are, get out." He slams the door and wait for me to get out.

When I get out he grabs my hand and walks up the path into school.

As soon as we leave the car I feel all eyes on us and hear whispering.

"Who the fuck is that ugly bitch?"

"Do you know her?"

"Ew, slut."

"Why the fuck is she with him?"

I ignore the comments, and carry on been dragged down the path by him.

But one person catches my eye.

"Why the fuck is he with.... that?!" She yells, glaring at me and making Evan smirk.
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"C'mon!

"No!"

"Please!"

"No!"

"Just fucking kiss me!" He whisper yells.

"No!"

"Why? She's staring right at us you idiot!"

"I'm not kissing you Evan!"

"Why?" He asks, leaning closer as it look away.

"Oh my god! You've never kissed anyone before have you?" He laughs loudly.

"Evan shut up!" I look around to see if anyone is noticing us.

"Oh.....My......God!" He gasps, tears streaming down him face.

"Evan please." I beg.

"Ok, ok. At least let me kiss your cheek."

"Fine." I grumble.

He looks behind me, probably checking if Courtney is looking.

He look into my eyes and leans in slowly, leaning past my lips and kissing my cheek slowly, leaving a tingling sensation (That I ignore) and pulls back smirking behind me.

"Ok, think that worked." He laughs, gesturing to behind us, where Courtney is leaning against the lockers, steam literally coming out of her ears as he whips around, storming away whilst swaying her hips side to side.

"See ya Lil." He turns around and walks off.

And there was one, great.

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"Lil! Why the fuck are you sat here?" He gestures to my table of friends either reading or doing homework.

"Um... sitting with my friends?"

"No. Come." He drags me up, just as I grab my bag in time and yell a goodbye to my confused friends behind me.

"Where are we going?" I mumble.

"My table." He shrugs.

Oh god.

No.

His table.

Populars.

Oh no.

My hands are getting sweaty and I'm going dizzy, oh god what if I faint or even worse what if it-

"Lil! Sit." Even rolls his eyes and gestures towards the empty space next to him.

As I sit down I feel everyone's eyes on me, but I daren't look up, so I just play with my ring on my finger.

This rings special, I know I'm mad at my dad for leaving me and everything, but it's all I've ever had of him.

He gave me it just before he left, he left it on my bed.

Probably just as an apology for abusing me for years.

Yeah, I got abused. For years and years. I'm used to it, I guess that's why I don't trust many people.

I have to stop to tears from coming out, as I hear my name.

"Lily?" A blonde boy with curly locks snaps me out of my thoughts.

"Sorry?" I blush.

"Wow dude, you've chosen a good one." A brown haired guy rolls his green eyes.

"Shut up" Evan snaps and the blonde boy ignores them, and repeats his question.

"Why haven't I seen you around before?"

"Um, I guess no one really notices me" I laugh.

"Why? You're hot as fuck." A black haired dude smirks, eyeing me up and down.

"Uh....."

This is going to be a long day.