Reality Check

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Early September

I'm really fucking starting to see shit again, I thought I saw someone dressed like Mr. Robot on my way to Layla's office today. Maybe it's just my anxiety playing tricks on me. As soon as I could, I set up an appointment with Layla, everything is in check, I have a clean bill of health so she gave me the go-ahead. A couple of weeks later I found a good donor since I began my search the next day after I called her. So now here we are, in an exam room waiting on the exam table for Layla to come in and start the procedure. Fuck... Am I rushing this? What do you think? All of a sudden I'm questioning my decision... Maybe I should take more time to consider this, or maybe I shouldn't be doing it at all. My thoughts are an absolute mess again; Hell, I can't even guarantee it's gonna be a girl. And what if Alex doesn't like the new baby once it's born. I've made the decision so quickly that now all of the negative arguments are jumping at my throat.

*SLAM*

I jumped startled by the noise.

"Oh, sorry, I didn't mean to slam the door." Layla stood in front of me.

"So... We're doing this?"

I nodded in response feeling the muscles in my throat tightening more. She walked over to a table to get some disposable gloves, laughing under her nose with her back turned to me.

"What's so funny?"

"Nothing, I just remembered something you said." She snickered again.

"What?"

"When you were in labor with Alex you said something along the lines - He better be worth it because I'm not doing this again - and now here we are. I just thought it was kinda funny."

I chuckled at the memory.

"I said - he better be good because he's not getting a sibling."

I looked straight down at the floor.

"So why the change of heart? Was he a bad boy and now you need to try again?"

We now both chuckled at her joke.

"I'm doing it because he deserves it. And if that's what he wants, then I'll do it for him."

At that moment all of my doubts went away as if nothing else mattered. We got everything set up and I laid on the exam table naked from the waist down waiting for her to do her part. All I could think about during the procedure was; I'm really doing this, this is really happening, I'm crazy for doing this. Why would I willingly do it again? But then my mind went right back to that night Alex asked me; Why he doesn't have a sister. And everything seemed justified. Thankfully the whole thing only lasted a few minutes.

"Now, Elliot. Please take good care of yourself, and eat right. Right now we're going to count as if this were the last day of your period. So for the next two weeks, not much is gonna happen. You may experience some light bleeding but that's normal, get back to me in the next three to four weeks and by that point, we'll be able to tell if it all worked."

"Alright, will do."

I stood up about to leave when she stopped me.

"Oh and, start taking prenatal vitamins."

I nodded and left, this is gonna be a crazy next few months. I left Alex with Darlene at the apartment while I was out, I didn't tell her what I was doing. This may not even work on the first try so she doesn't need to know.

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Early October