Insecurities (Both versions)

Version my co-worker re-vamped

I don't understand after all these years

How I can still feel these crazy insecurities that bring me to tears

Will you stay or will you go

I keep my heart locked away safely don't let it show

For it can be broken when life gets to be too much

These worrying feelings never end even though I deeply yearn for your touch

I was afraid to fall in love

Afraid to have another break me

So my emotions hidden I pushed I shoved

But only you were not blinded and could see

My hopes, my dreams, my scars, my shames

My happiness and love, my self torment when I blame

I beg and plead and only you saw through my insecurities

I know that if I ever lost you

Here I could no longer be

For surely I would shatter apart

To be without you just isn't my reality

Instead you picked up my pieces

You healed my aches and fixed my broken

You offered me completeness

You became my life, my freebie token

Broke down the walls I kept in place

Stayed by me no matter how tough

I put up the run and you followed to chase

No matter how bumpy or rough

You wanted to be beside me to win that race

Yet these insecurities plague my mind

Late nights when you're gone they roam

Unable to sleep without you beside me all the time

I wait and yearn for time to go faster to have you home

Still afraid you'll find someone better

I hurt to imagine someone else to give you pleasure

Yet I still want you more than ever

Oh the pain of my twisted brain thinking

Thinking all these ups and downs

All making me feel emotionally insane

You stay with me, beside me, to help remind me

That you love me and in return I want the "US" to always be

I love you and whisper it into your ear as you sleep to help you dream peacefully

And remind you why you should never cheat

I'm the only one you want

It's your voice that calms my insecure thoughts

You and you alone stops those nagging voices in my head

And because of you that's why I said

I love you and you love me

I want help to stop my insecurities

Thanks for being my rock, my shell, my best friend because without you I'd be alone

And my love and thanks goes with you 'til our end

My insecurities I say goodbye

As I hold your hand and realize

There's nothing I can change between us

So I am living it up with all the hugs, kisses, love and with our trust

I love you, thank you my beauty from within

I'm glad I married my savior and my best friend

(This is about my ex wife. She made me so insecure from how she treated me. Now I understand that she manipulated me and I have since this poem divorced her and have moved on with my life.)