Loathe

lights + thunder

"This is the only truth we want
Watching the sky for a hint of a spark
Sailing further towards the unknown
Melting down our hearts of stone
Lift our happy hands from the cold
The wind whispers you are never ever alone"

Lights + Thunder by Krewella


        I stared into his eyes and slowly furrowed my brows, "No...no...tell me." He gave me a look that told me he didn't want to speak a single word of it. I sighed and shook it off, "Nevermind. I'm...sorry I asked. Anyway, I thought you were dating Shibe?"

        Bill's eyebrows raised, "I...I...not...anymore..." He shook a bit, and slowly grasped my hand, tightly holding on as he leaned forward and curled himself up in my chest. Completely forgetting about the task at hand, he sobbed silently into me. I guess he had had a rough break-up. I'm not sure what happened, but I remember Shibe liking Krissy before she got with Bill, so perhaps she left and went to Krissy, even though Krissy is not bisexual nor lesbian, so I'm not sure what really happened. I wasn't about to ask, though. I knew that it might crush him if I made him rethink all those memories.

        I sighed mentally, "It's okay, Bill. I... uh....it'll be okay." Wrapping my arms around him, I winced at the pain on my arm and breathed out a small hiss. He jerked back a bit and gasped.

        "I'm so sorry! I should be tending to the wound. I completely forgot!" He squeaked, and quickly patched it all up with bandadges and smiled at me, "Feel better?"

        Narrowing my eyes half-way with an apathetic look, I turned to look at my left and out my window. I couldn't believe this was happening. It was like my life got turned upside down. Matter of fact, I swear Bill might even have a thing for me, but I'm too scared to fall into this. It could be a trap. Shaking off the thought, I felt a touch to my face and looked straight at Bill with an astonished look. He had his hand on my right cheek, softly caressing it and had the most loving look in his eyes. I was sort of scared but entirely relaxed, as if I could not move. I felt... hypnotized.

        Bill leaned closer to me and stopped just a millimeter away from my lips, letting them brush slightly as he calmly turned to look at the window, "You know... the break-up wasn't too big a deal. It was just something small. Nothing to worry about. But...I love you." In that moment, he turned back to me and this time forcefully pushed his lips against mine, slowly and gently moving against my own. I melted into the kiss and let him inside my mouth, and moaned softly at the interaction.

        The moment he pulled away, I began whining even though I was panting real badly. He pushed his palm onto my face, "That's enough, Ace." He giggled, "Don't be such a slut."

        I gasped dramatically at his words and proceeded to giggle afterwards, "Aww...come on. You know how much I love it."

        Bill turned around with a seriously surprised look on his face, "Wh-"

        I laughed so hard and fell over in a fit of laughter, "Oh my goodness! I was joking! I don't actually enjoy fucking many other people!"

        Suddenly, he smirked greatly and looked at me with a devious look, "Are you saying you're a virgin?" I stopped laughing. My expression was fearful at him, due to the fact he had the power to persuade me into many other things. 

        Gulping, I stuttered, "W...well no...I mean...no....yeah...uhm..." I quickly got up and scrambled to my bed, and got under the covers, curling up and cowering. I was such a coward, and that's why I hated myself. I couldn't live with such cowardice behavior, but it is who I am. 

        Bill stepped back a bit and widened his bright, blue eyes at what I just did, but it turned into the most loving smile, "It's okay. I know many people who are virgins and you should be lucky you didn't lose it yet....or it least to someone who ended up breaking your heart.." His voice cracked at the end of the sentence, and I slowly lifted the covers, looking at him with pleading eyes and embraced him in a warm hug.

        I softly murmured into his chest, "Shh, Bill, it's alright. I'm sorry about what happened but how about we put that aside for now?" I squeaked a bit, and he nodded, hugging me back.

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LOVE ME PLEASE. ~Krissy