My one TRUE love❤️.... Or so I thought

Chapter 4 "My NEW Man vs My OLD Man"

a/n~ at this point I was so confused at what to do so I went in to slut mode not sleeping with people but liking everyone wanting everyone and only wanting them for a day or two.
This Chapter is more of me questioning which guy is the "ONE" which it also could be neither of them ??? Have to read to see
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"Love is the voice under all silences, the hope which has no opposite in fear; the strength so strong mere force is feebleness: the truth more first than sun, more last"
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Was I acting like a slut? Was it just the side effects from the shattered heart? What ever it was I liked it Steve was perfect too! I don't want it to end it was like 1000 volts of adrenaline in my veins! Maybe I was wrong about Austin maybe it was Steve? He gives me butterflies Austin never could. Could that mean something? Could he be the one? My life was a bundle of emotions I had no control over anything and I didn't like it all!
Austin was a bad boy who did whatever he wanted to anyone when ever he wanted he didn't care and I kinda like that! He smoked pot everyday along with cigerettes which I also did which was great for our relasionship but then again when we kissed it didnt taste so good 👌😂😁
Steve was kind cute and caring a triple package which is cute he was a little bad but he was considerate towards others peoples feeling which make he a great candidate for a Tumblr couple which is amazing 👌😂😁
Which one was it or was it neither of them I was so confused I just wanted to end it I Cried myself to sleep every night I cut myself everyday and at some points I actually tried to kill myself it was that extreme to me but maybe not to them because they didn't seem to care as much as me or care about me 😩😪
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Some people feel the rain others just get wet ~ Bob Marley 🚬🌿🍁
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Austin: black curly hair, tan skin, tattoo, RIPPED, beautiful brown eyes.
Steve: black wavy hair, pale skin, no tattoo, almost ripped, gorgeous blue eyes.
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A/N How is it tell me in the comments and alexia I told you not to read it (the Lexi in my story is also reading this story).