Mamma Mia! Now We Really Know

Chapter Four: A lover, or a friend?

Donna
It was Harry, the only person except my daughter that could make me happy.
- Hey - I said with a little smile.
- Hi Don - he smiled - are you alright?
- Yep.. I guess so.
- What's up? - he asked me already knowing I'm hiding something.
- Okay.. I have a problem with Sam..
- Oh, is it because of what happened last night?
- Yes, it is.
- I'm sorry Donna, I didn't want to ruin your life.. - he said a bit sad.
- Don't be - I put my hand on his arm - It's not your fault and you didn't do anything bad, okay? Don't blame yourself.
- Without me everything would be okay..
- Don't talk like that, you were drunk, so you couldn't help it.
- Yeah... drunk... - he said comfused.
- You okay?
- Yes, I am.
- Are you sure?
- No.. Donna I have to tell you something.
- Shoot.
- I think I kinda enjoyed that night not just because I was drunk...
- Oh.. What do you mean?
- I love you, Sheridan.
- I love you too, my friend - I said not really knowing what to do.
- I don't mean friend way of love..
- So what do you mean? - I tried to act like I don't know what he means.
- I mean.. you know..
- Harry I.. I don't know how to react.
- I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't..
- No, don't be sorry, love isn't anything wrong, okay? I just don't know what to do and what I want or feel.. everything runs so fast and I think I still don't get everything.
- I know, Don.. but what will be now?
- It's difficult to say now.. I really wish I could tell you anything but in my head there's only a big mess. Sorry, I have to go. I went to the beach. Looking at the sea kinda calmed me down, but I still couldn't come up with an idea for what to do.
I felt like everything around me changes and I'm not strong enough to follow my own life. I never felt like that, it was.. strange and..
I couldn't continue, 'Cause he kissed me.
I didn't know how to react, so I kissed him back.
- Harry..
- I'm sorry.. I shall go - he went away.
I spent hours in my room full of darkness just thinking of what happened last time.
Donna? - I've heard well known voice.
- Sam.. What are you doing here?
- Sophie said something's wrong with you and I'm worried..
- I'm okay - I said trying to hide my pain.
- I don't think so. I know it's my fault and I'm sorry, but I can't trust you and that's why I'm not sure if we should be together.
- I was drunk, and I regret everything.
- I know, Don, but let me think about it, okay?
- I don't think I have anything to do about it.
- So, do you need any help?
- No, thanks.
- Okay, so see you soon, I gotta go - he went out of her room.
"What to do?" I asked myself. "What is going to happen?" I also thought.
"Maybe I should dissapear?".
I took a gun and I wondered if I should end me.