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"Putanginang pintuan 'to!" Inis na sambit ni Calvin. He is fuming, ang napagdiskitahan niya ay ang inosenteng pintuan ng rooftop.
Then one moment after, we all became appalled when out of nothing, Calvin run away from it. Huli na noong malaman naming bumwelo lang pala siya. We are not ready when he slammed himself there.
Napalunok ako ng laway. Kusang nagpawis ang mga palad ko. Balling my fist, I close my eyes when Calvin repeat what he did.
Darkness succumbed my sight when I heard a door to open. Then a cold breeze of air hug me. Sumikip ang paghinga ko. How ironic it was for me, I was suffocated by the excessive air who tried to indulge me.
Maybe, this is just the feeling of not wanting to face the reality. Maybe, this is just how I deny the truth. By stopping my breathe. By making a shit out of me.
Nagbukas ako ng mga mata habang ang puso ko ay patuloy sa pagdagundong.
Huli na noong malaman ko na lahat pala sila ay nasa ibabaw na ng rooftop. Naiwan ako dito sa dilim. Nakatanaw sa eksaktong lugar kung saan nagpatuloy ang lahat sa akin. Kasama si Rafael.
Tangina niya.
The next morning, I dragged fucking Rafael at the rooftop of their department. I want to clear fucking things to him.
Fuck him.
Fuck what he did to me.
"I am not fucking gay!" I told him kahit wala naman siyang sinasabi. Pointing a finger at him. With raging eyes and my veins evident from my forehead and neck.
"You are just being indennial." He is fucking walking closer to me. I am stepping back. The table turns around, ako ngayon ang natatakot lumapit sa kanya.
"Come on, you are just confused." I hate the fucking genuine concern on his eyes! "Maybe, you are not totally gay. Maybe you are just a pansexual or something."
Umiigting ang panga ko habang patuloy paglayo sa kanya.
"I will help you. We will figure this out--"
I snapped. Harshly. "Don't start with your motherfucking homo terms! I am not like you! I will never be a fucking gay like you!"
"Acceptance will only start with you. Ikaw lang ang mahihirapan kung hindi mo matatanggap kung ano ka ba talaga."
It was a dead end for me. My back hits the wall. Practically, without this wall, I am standing infront of the heights above the school ground. Na wala ring pinagkaiba sa paglapit ni Rafael sa akin.
Kasi alam ko, kapag lumapit pa siyang muli sa akin, it will be the death of me.
"Don't you fucking come near me!"
Then he stopped his feet. He raise his hands, it's like making me realize that he is weaponless. That he is harmless. "Okay." He heave a deep sigh. "Okay."
And I found myself hating that idea.
Bakit hindi na lang siya lumapit pa?
Putangina, naguguluhan na ako sa nararamdaman ko!
"Basta, if you need help. Nandito lang ako." He eyed me carefully. "H'wag mong intindihin ang nangyari sa atin kahapon . . . it's just a kiss."
BINABASA MO ANG
Secrets Behind Finding Rafael (Published Under PSICOM Publishing House Inc.)
Misteri / ThrillerSeven teenagers who bullied Rafael Chavez, a discreet bisexual teenager, have to find and save him within twenty four hours in order to prevent him from committing suicide or else, they will be held accountable for his death. In that short amount of...
